At first, I stopped eating
because I wanted to be like her
skinny and beautiful
but I was not her;
I was not skinny
and I was not her kind of beautiful;
my curves were much more curvaceous
and my face was fuller,
and that is what triggered my insecurities
that is what triggered my lack of eating
my lack of self worth—
them,
but it was me
that allowed it to manifest
