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20

-Rika's Final Diary Entry, The Day Before Her Death

(D/M/Y)

Kagura was very unstable tonight. I felt bad that I couldn't help her. Chuuya was the only one who can really talk to her, but now, even he is busy. Without Dazai and Chuuya to talk to, she felt quite lonely. If Odasaku weren't there to comfort her, she wouldn't last this long.

Lore, that damned Lore. He did something despicable to her, injecting her with something like that; as if giving her brutal experiments aren't enough.

Juancho wanted to stop him so bad, but even he couldn't do it. Defying Lore meant death, and I had a feeling that Juancho knows that she will survive it.

The thing is, I don't think she can survive.

I just...feel really disappointed at myself. I wish I handled this differently. Now Dashner is going to have his way to be the new leader of Nightstalker.

I can't help but feel slightly disappointed at the Paladins. They didn't do anything to stop it, even though they could do it.
I wonder when Juancho will finally spill everything. About Dashner, about Lore, about me.

I'm severely disappointed at my myself. I failed as a mother.

I can't even protect my own child.