Futatabi Ningen•|Dazai Osamu|•

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Dashner, The Traitor.

Fuck her, fuck Dazai, fuck everybody! I hate hate hate hate all of them!

That smartass princess and the pesky bandaged amoeba, standing in my way along with those pesky little pets!

That stupid princess, always getting in my way, taking Lore's attention and my chance to be the next Creator!

I don't get it.

I just want to be recognized.

So why, just why...why does she have to to stand in my way?

Is it because she is his daughter and I'm not? What flaws do I have, that she don't..? Is because I'm 6 years younger?

I already did everything. Everything! I went as far as manipulate the Creator, and getting her to participate an experiment that will surely get her killed!

And yet, here she is; still alive and well. Breathing and smiling, along with her pesky friends. God, I hate her so much! I just wish I can chop off her head like a foam!

*sighs* Now that I think of it, when was the last time I gave a genuine smile? When I saw Dazai run away from the Grievers, I didn't see a frown: instead, I saw a tiny smile in his face.

That bastard, did he enjoy the feeling of approaching death?! Or was that smile from a feeling of slight hope..?

Hope. Ha. I used to feel that, but not anymore.

When the two orange heads popped up, i can't help but mentally curse myself for making such a big mistake.

A mistake so big, that if it didn't happen, I could've won.

My ability revives allies who died a few minutes before activation as well.

I revived Juancho.

You're so stupid, James! How could you forget such thing?!

Juancho used the earpieces he gave each Paladin, except for me, who declined, as a way of sending information.

Now they know how to navigate this thing! Curse him, and his secret-filled head!

I felt many wires within me snap, signalling that they're defeating the Paladins one by one.

This is it: it's over. I'm not winning, and there's no second chance.

I lied about me having to die before deactivating The Maze Runner. I simply gave myself a reason to kill myself.

I would rather get killed by my own two hands than get defeated by those plebeians.

Ha. This is the end of my journey, I see. It's a shame I couldn't live longer. They didn't stop me at all, so I might need to thank them for doing so. Unfortunately, I'll die faster than I could say 'thank you'.

I suddenly questioned my actions. Is this what people think of when they're on Death's door?

Why did I do that? Why did I think I have to do that? I could've just lived my life as a Paladin like everybody else, and yet I was selfish enough to look for more. I didn't have to do that, after all. Lore already trusted me, and yet.....

I abused it.

And now, it's game over.