innocent | ethan dolan

thirty-three

its you. it's always been you.

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violet's pov;

I stayed down the twins' house so that I could help out and make sure everything was okay. I hadn't visited the hospital in a few days now because I couldn't stand seeing him. Knowing that he was driving so recklessly because of me made feel bad.

It made me feel horrible.

"You know he misses you." Gray says, as I begin preparing some food for the whole family. Grayson volunteered to help me out since he liked to cook.

I start chopping vegetables, "No he doesn't." I reply.

"How would you know Violet?" he says.

"Because I know him. He doesn't care about anyone except himself."

"You know that is most definitely not true." Grayson says.

"He's getting discharged today. He'll be home in an hour." Grayson says, turning to me.

"Great. I'm leaving tonight. I have to prepare things for when my dad gets back."

"No way. You're staying for dinner." he says, holding my arm as he corners me to the kitchen counter. I look up at him; his eyes looked dark and angry.

"Grayson." I say, as he held my arm a little too hard.

He shakes his head lightly as if to wake him out a trance, "I'm sorry. Its your choice. I'll pack you some food." he says, taking a few steps back.

"Thank you." I smile. I finally finish cooking and set the table before I grab my stuff and make my way home. My dad was going to be home in two days and I wanted him to come to a nice and clean home.

I start driving home, Lauv blasting through my speakers so I wouldn't be able to think about anything. I didn't live far from the Dolans' however I decided to take the long way home so that I could listen to my music.

I reached home and sat down on the couch, opening the tub of food that Grayson had packed for me before sitting down on the couch watching a movie that was on.

At some point, I think I fell asleep.

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I sit at the lunch table along with Shawn and Joey. They were now an official couple. Shawn had asked her a few days ago to be his girlfriend and Joey of course, said yes.

"How's Ethan?" Joey asks.

"I don't know. I haven't seen him since the day of the accident." I shrug.

"Seriously?" she asks.

I look at her, "Yes I'm serious. Besides, Will and I have something." I say.

"Sweetie, are you trying to convince me or yourself?" she asks, saying 'sweetie' in her sarcastic tone. "Sure, you and Will can be a thing but.." she trailed off.

As I'm about to take a bite of my pineapple, the doors to cafeteria burst open and I see Ethan walk in. The scratches on his face had healed and he looked much better.

He had broken a lot ribs so I knew he wasn't allowed to play lacrosse. Plus, he also had a broken arm. As soon as we make eye contact, I look away. I couldn't stand it. I stand up, as do Joey and Shawn, trying to go outside.

"Violet." I hear Ethan call but I don't turn around. I was done with him. He keeps calling my name until I hear his footsteps right behind me. I feel Ethan put his hand on my shoulder.

"What?" I say, turning to him. He doesn't say anything, instead he just kisses me. In front of everyone. For some reason, I kissed him back too. He pulls my body closer to him, passion flowing through the kiss.

I hear a few gasps as well as whispers, making my mind wonder why the hell he was doing this.

Although I was enjoying this, I didn't like that everyone's attention was on us. I pulled away, looking at his face.

"God, you have no idea how long I've wanted to do that." he says.

"What are you doing?" I whisper as I look at the smile he had on his face. My thumb traced the healing scar on his jaw.

"Letting everyone know you're mine." he smiles. I realise that he was holding flowers in his hand. Fucking flowers.

"Good joke Ethan." I roll my eyes turning around. Before I could walk away from this wicked prank, Ethan grabs my arm, pulling me back to him.

"How many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone?" I say, my fingers tracing around the bruise around his eye as he stared at me.

I felt Joey tug on my arm and I looked at her. I step away from Ethan's embrace as I walk towards my class.

"Violet. I love you." I hear Ethan's voice. My head turns around to face him. He was staring at me, his body posture slouched as he licks his lips. He made it too difficult to stay mad at him.

No one has ever said those words to me. Not since my mother.

I walk closer to him, "No you don't." I fake a laugh. I was sick and tired of being played by him.

"I do Violet. I'm so in love with you, you don't even know the half of it. I've wanted to tell you for the longest time but you never came back. You want me to scream it to the world?" he says. I think I felt my heart skip a beat as he says those words.

I stare at his face for a few seconds, trying to figure out if he was lying to me or not. I didn't know what to fucking do right now. I looked at Ethan's eyes then down to his lips. I hated how much I craved him.

So I did it this time.

I kissed him back. He pulled me close, his hand on my waist as I feel his other one trails down to my ass. I smile through the kiss before stopping him. I feel him smiling at too.

"Nuh-uh." I say, putting his hand on my waist. He shakes his head with a smile before kissing me again, this time it was more passionate. I felt like everyone had disappeared. Like it was just us two.

"God, I hate you Dolan." I smile, looking at him.

"But I love you LaMont." he smirks, biting on his bottom lip as he stepped back. I look around and realise that everyone's attention was on us.

"VIOLET! You fucking whore! What are you doing with my boyfriend?!" I hear an annoying but familiar voice. Ethan turns around to see standing next to me, as he intertwines our fingers. I feel my heart get warm due to the small action.

"Watch who you're fucking speaking to, Alicia." Ethan says. Alicia narrows her eyes at Ethan before she looks at me.

"You're going to regret this." Alicia says.

"No. She's not. We're over Alicia. Can you not understand English?" Ethan says, shaking his head. She scowls before walking off.

I turn around to smile at Ethan but I see someone in the corner of my eye.

Someone that I hurt very much.

Someone that I had promised a second date.

He had hurt clearly shown on his face. He looked away from me before walking out the doors of the cafeteria.

"Will! Wait!"

a/n: so! this was exciting!

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lots of love and d,
-N