Keeping Patience

15.

"Call 911!" I heard Patience say then feel for my pulse. I could hear everything and I'm very much alive, I just can't open my fucking eyes.

"Give me t-the medicine Patience" I whispered "water" my mouth was suddenly dry.

"O-Okay" I hear her say between sobs.

I felt grains of the medicine. I suppose she crushed it up. "Help me sit him up!" Patience yelled.

I felt someone pull me up with no struggle. Had to be KJ. I felt small drainage of water tickle my throat.
"More"

"Kevin I can't pour much I don't want you to choke!"

"More!" I yelled

She poured more and I felt a relief.

"Where's the ambulance? KJ you called 911?? Who called 911?!"

I slowly felt my eyes open.
"Dad!" I heard Kari yell

"Oh my God baby!" Patience yelled jumping in my arms.

"Dad, I'm so sorry" KJ cried kneeling beside me. I grabbed his head and pulled him into my chest and kissed his forehead.

"I love you KJ. I love all of you. Please know that. I love all of my kids, and Kari you not excluded. You are MINES. Me and your mother have been together for a very long time. I had a rough past, I got locked up taking the bid for some shit my older brother, Cash, did. Worst mistake of my life, while I was locked up I told your mother to stop contacting me and talk to other people because I felt like less of a man not being able to care for her. She met someone else and he became the father I couldn't to my daughter, Heaven. I missed my baby being born and everything but your mom sent me pictures. She was so beautiful" I cried "Well your mother's boyfriend at the time, Kari's father to be exact, took Heaven to the park. Harmless. Well my envious brother had her killed to hurt me and your mother. When I got out your mother tried to kill him but he didn't die. I killed him before KJ was born, when you were just a baby Kari. I tried to hide this gangster lifestyle from you kids. I didn't want y'all growing up like me. Exposed to this shit, but this is what it is."

I wrapped my arms around my kids and kissed all of them on top of their heads. I knew now that I couldn't leave them this soon. I have to do something about this brain inflammation. I can't scare them like this again.

But more than anything I have to be honest with them.

"Patience" I called. She was sitting on the bottom of the stairs with her head in her hands, sobbing silently.
"Come here baby"

She walked over to me then dropped to her knees in front of me. I grabbed her and pulled her in my lap. "I love you more than life itself. Without you, I wouldn't have my kids and I would be miserable. You are designed for me. God put me here for you, to love you. The day I decided to marry you and make a vow to you and God, is the day life really began for me. I changed my whole life for you and my kids and I'll do it a thousand more."

She kissed my lips and hugged my neck "Kevin, y-you're scaring me. Tell me what's wrong?"

"Lately I've been experiencing horrible migraines. Most days they are so bad I throw up blood. I went to the doctor and that's what those pills were for. They slow down the brain inflammation I've been experiencing."

"But why? Why is this happening? They said you would be fine after we almost lost you those years ago?" She cried

"Yeah, But I've been stressing a lot lately which set off a series of issues. Which thats another thing I've been hiding from you. The house was entering foreclosure and our cars were going to be repossessed if I didn't do anything by the end of this week. I couldn't have us lose everything we've worked hard for. I felt like less of a man having my pregnant wife working all day on her feet. So I took Dax's offer and became KingPin."

"and I'm in the game too ma, I'm sorry" KJ inputted

"Are you serious? You can't be. Kevin you got my baby in this shit?" She cried

"I'm sorry" I said pulling her into me. She fought, kicked, screamed, and punched me but I wouldn't let her go. She eventually tired out and just cried in my arms.

"I'm scheduling an appointment tomorrow. Hopefully I can have surgery soon so they can cure me for sure this time. I can't leave y'all and I'm back in the game. I know you don't like that P, but it's in me. This is our life. I'm not meant to be a working 9-5 type nigga."

She nodded and kissed my lips "I don't care about that right now. I just want you well. I can't lose you, we need you" She said kissing my lips softly.

"I'm sure Dax knows a personal doctor that can come check your right now. I'm calling him" she said getting off my lap "KJ, help your dad to bed."

KJ pulled me up mostly on his own.
"I see training helping you already. You're stronger."  I said going up the stairs with his help.

"Yeah.. I'm so sorry dad. I feel like this all my fault" he helped me to the bed  "If I wouldn't have sa—"

"KJ, look at me" he looked at me with tears eyes "everything always happens the way it's supposed to. You didn't do anything. I'm sorry for keeping so much from y'all. When you lie and keep secrets, shit like this happens. But remember this, a real man always admits his wrongs."

We embraced a manly hug and he left out. I took my clothes off and climbed under the sheets, suddenly feeling drained from today's events.

I awoke to a dip in the bed. I rolled over and wrapped my arms around Patience's small frame.
"Doctor will be over in the morning bright and early. For now, get your rest."

"I love you"

"I love you too Kevin. Forever."

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Patience in MM^ .
Just because I haven't posted many pics of her lately lol