Keeping Patience

10.

KARI

Tears rolled down my cheek as I drove to the beach close to my house. Jhene Aiko's Triggered boomed through my speaker. I took a swig of my strawberry Ciroc as I sung along

Don't know what I'm capable of
Might fuck around and go crazy on cuz
Might fuck around, have to pay me in blood
This ain't the way that you want it
Might catch a case in this bitch
Don't let me catch you face-to-face in this bitch
Tryin' my hardest not to disrespect you
After what you did, man, what you expected?
You muhfucker,

I parked my car and walked to the edge of the shore. Sitting down with my phone in my left hand and bottle in my right. I took the last sip and threw the empty bottle in the water. I folded my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs as the flashbacks crept into my head.

I lost my virginity to Shawn. It wasn't as bad as I always thought it would be. He made sure to kiss me and whisper sweet things in my ear. But afterwards he ignored me, he told me to leave and not contact him anymore as if he was angry with me.

I left his bedroom and walked past Kim's room to see her and Amber sobbing. Kim gave me a sympathetic look and Amber gave me a death glare. I was confused until I got down stairs to the rest of the party and found out a picture was taken of my brother KJ and D.C. fucking Kim. I then heard whispers that they raped her. Which I didn't believe, I know Kim is easy. Plus she always wanted to have sex with KJ so why would she claim rape?

I dug my feet into the sand when I jumped hearing a voice creep up on me
"It's not safe to be out here by yourself"

I turned to see KJ. "What are you doing here?" I asked

"I come here to think sometimes. I'm guessing you do too?" He asked

I sighed "yeah"

It got quiet for a while before either one of us spoke.

"KJ.. I know you didn't rape Kim."

He shook his head "I'll never rape anyone. Especially her. I didn't even fuck that girl, we never got that far. She just sucked my dick that's all."

"Ewwwww" I waved him off "nobody want to hear that."

He chuckled "a text came to D.C. phone from Shawn saying he had sex with you.."

My eyes widened "uh.."

"Don't answer that" he said, I could hear the anger in his voice.

"I regret it so much. But I can't take it back. We didn't even use protection. Everything was actually good until the end. I guess he got that picture of y'all and Kim at that time. He broke things off with me." I cried

"Shit.. I'm sorry Kari. I didn't like him but I never planned to be the cause of your heart break."

"It's okay. Really. I'm okay. Everything will be okay. We're Gauldens. We're strong, right?" I asked

"You muhfuckinn right" he said

We laughed as his phone rung. He ignored it twice and placed it back in his pocket.

"Dad?" I asked

"Yeah" He said sighing "ima have to fuck Shawn up tho Kari. I'm sorry. He's threatening me, I can't have that."

I nodded "be my guest"

We shared a laugh and got up grabbing my hand "come on, let's go home."

We walked to our cars "Kari, I love you sis and I love Safarii too. I'll die behind y'all before I let anyone nigga fuck with y'all. Know that."

I nodded my head and smiled "we love you too lil big bro." I hugged him tight and jumped in my car feeling better.

"FOE. Family over everything" I mumbled