Silver

Chapter 45

Grey.

My eyes slowly fluttered open. Everything was dark, save for the blurry yellow light of the street lamp a few feet away. My ears were ringing and my head was pounding with every beat of my heart.

Grey. Why had he done that? Why couldn't he let me move on?

As my eyes adjusted to my surroundings, I realized where I was- what had happened. I was sprawled across an alleyway, the stones all crumbled to pebbles beneath me. There were massive cracks in the stonework that radiated out from my body, as if I had been a meteor falling from above.

Grey. I'd never seen him that angry before. He'd always told me he wasn't a good person, but had never explained it. He'd said that if I'd known about his past, I would look at him differently. Is this what he meant?

I was lucky there was no one around to see me. I would have trouble finding an explanation for this.

Grey. I needed to see him. I needed to know why.

I could see his fluorescent irises every time my eyes closed. I could feel the power- the anger- radiating off of him as clearly as if he were standing next to me. I could feel his pain. I could feel it searing in my chest, through every bone of my body. It haunted me. The way he'd looked at me when Li had kissed me- it's something I will never forget.

I pulled myself up onto my knees, hanging my head between my shoulders as I garnered my strength.

Why was I thinking of Grey? Why was he the first thing my mind went to? I literally hadn't even come to yet and my mind had begun to think of him. I don't know why he haunted me so much. I'm hoping it's because I'm so mad at him I can't think of anything else. That's what we're going to go with.

I began walking, my footsteps echoing off the walls of the buildings around me. I could see the lights of the bridges along the Seine down the street a ways, so I headed in that direction. I knew how to get to Grey's hotel from there.

I needed to see him.

I just didn't understand why he had to kill Li, why he had told Li he would 'see him in Hell'. I hoped he hadn't meant that. I knew Grey had the power to send him there, which is what scared me even more. Li was a good man. He didn't deserve Hell. He certainly didn't deserve eternal damnation for kissing me. That's just absurd.

However, I obviously didn't know a single thing about Grey, so I had no hope that he would see reason and allow Li to go to Heaven.

The fact that I apparently knew so little about Grey broke my heart.

My ragged breathing echoed off the alleyway, little whimpering sobs escaping my lips every now and again. I couldn't hardly control my emotions. They were pouring out of me like all my walls had broken down at once.

I'd given literally everything I had to give to him, and he hadn't even shown me his real personality. Nothing he'd given me was real. Even his name wasn't his real one. I had known absolutely nothing about him and had given him everything. He had scammed me out of everything I had.

How did he do that? How did he manage to get so deep underneath my skin that he could manipulate the very fabric of my being?

I used to pride myself on how cautious I was when it came to people. I believed no one could trick me, no one would ever get close enough to hurt me.

I was so wrong. God, I was so wrong.

I'd believed him. Everything he'd said, I believed. And I'd fallen so incredibly in love with him I'd died for him, I'd Pledged my Soul to him. I'd given everything I had to a man I didn't know.