Softer//Billie Eilish

P

A few days later 

Billie's POV

I need to tell Lexie. I've been keeping this a secret for ages now. I need to tell her. We tell each other everything. I love her. We both wanted this. Why can't I just tell her? I couldn't sleep. I couldn't stop worrying. I'm not an anxious person but this is terrifying. What if it ruins are relationship. I should have just told her. I'm stupid not to. She can tell something's bothering me. She keeps asking but I deflect her which makes me feel worse. All I need to do is get out of bed and go speak to her. 

I got up and walked into the kitchen to find her chatting with Lilly. I don't have a problem with Lilly I quite like her actually but she's always here at the most inconvenient times. As soon as they noticed that I was in the room they both stopped talking. So they we're talking about me. That's so fun. I've changed my mind I don't like Lilly. I decided that I didn't wanna talk to her at the moment so I decided to get myself something to eat. I walked past the two of them with out speaking. "What put you in such a bad mood." Lexie asked mockingly. "You know I'm going through something at the moment so I'd appreciate if you just stop it." I Said grumpily. Lexie looked at me shocked but I ignored her and reached for some food. As soon as I smelt it I suddenly felt sick. The feeling passed but I still put the food away. So these are the down sides. This sucks. Why did I wanna get pregnant? Yeah the child that you get out of it or the children in are case. "Billie, What's wrong?" Lexie asked slightly mad. What am I gonna do now. I can't tell her. Especially with Lilly here. "Nothing." I Said bitterly looking over at Lilly. "I should leave." Lilly Said getting up. Lexie showed her out before coming back to me. She's obviously mad. Why do I do this to myself?

"Billie you can be really immature sometimes. How could you do that to my friend?" She Said getting really angry.

"You were the ones talking about me." I Said digging myself further into a hole.

"Yeah we were talking about you. About how you've been keeping a secret from me for months and how it's gotten more obvious over the past few days and how I think you're having an affair. And how I'm scared you're gonna leave me. So you have no right to act like that towards me. We are supposed to trust each other. I could forgive an affair if you told me but you won't so I don't even know what's wrong." She Said starting to cry. Now I really have to tell her.

"Ok, we need to talk come sit with me." I Said walking into are room. Lexie was shaking. She really thought I'd leave her. I hate that I've made her feel like that. She deserves better. "Tell me. Everything I need to know." She Said sitting next to me. 

"First of all I'd never leave you and I'd never cheat on you. I love you so much.and where do I find someone who can put up with me. I'm all yours and only yours." I Said casing her to blush. "What is it then?" She Said looking relieved. 

"Ok first the reason I didn't tell you, two months ago that night we got drunk. You told me that you didn't remember anything and I said nothing important happened. That was a lie." I Said trying to be reassuring. "Oh...Ok" Lexie Said still confused. 

"Well that night we started talking about wanting to have a family and how Now was the perfect time to do it. So you booked a doctors appointment to get in vitro fertilisation. And I went. And it worked." I Said not looking at her. I know she's gonna be mad but it feels good to tell her. "What happened?" She asked. "What do you mean?" I replied confused. "Recently something changed what happened?" She asked again. "Well I went to the doctors and they confirmed the pregnancy and told be that we're having twins." I responded. "Oh... well. I don't know what to say. Except I'm choosing the names." She Said hugging me. "Firstly you're not mad? Secondly that's not fair we should both get to pick the names." I Said relieved. "No I'm not mad. That's amazing news. And I suppose I could let you have some input but we're not having any dum names." She Said smiling at me. I pulled her closer to me and embraced her. I really love this girl. She's gonna be a great mom. Not to be narcissistic but we both will be. And are baby's are gonna be better than all these other kids. How could they not be. Lexie is there mom. They're the luckiest kids on earth. I'll make sure they know that.