Loving Him // Jaeden Martell

Alternitive Ending pt 11

Kaitlyn's POV

We had just gotten to the hotel after a long ride of Jack and Finn bickering over what's the best snack. I swear these two argue and bicker every 10 minutes, they're just so much alike. We all got out of the limo, Jaeden taking my hand as he helped me out. I wasn't to fond of wearing heels but Bela assured me it would look best.

I had expected Jaeden to let go of my hand since we weren't technically dating but, he didn't. He continued to hold it as we made our way through the back entrance of the hotel. To say I was nervous was an understatement. Not to mention my anxiety was through the roof. I've had anxiety my whole life and it's always at its worst during an event or around a large crowd. This just happened to be an event with a enormous crowd.

We all made our way to the ballroom where the meet and greet would take place. It was still about 30 minutes before they started letting people inside. By the looks of the line outside there was well over 500 people and I doubt all of them came from just Colorado.
"Are you okay?" I hear Sophia ask me snapping out my thoughts. "Oh yeah just a bit nervous" I smiled.
"You'll be fine Kait, I'm right here" Jaeden says as he kisses the back of my hand, while holding it tighter. Something about Jaeden just made me feel safe and secure. It was like as long as he was around me nothing could hurt or bother me. He really means the world to me.

"Okay guys, security just got here and they are about to start letting the fans in" Angela informed us all. Oh no. For a moment I totally forgot about it. Shit. Okay, deep breaths. Why am I even nervous, it's not like they're fans of me or anything. I smiled as they opened the doors and stood back behind Jaeden and Sophia so I wouldn't be in the way.

"Alright people please make a line! We're not going to start the meet and greet until you do so!" One of the security guard screams through the megaphone. Then one by one people started to come up. I was actually enjoying seeing everyone face light up when they saw each of them. After a while I felt the need to the bathroom. I didn't bother telling anyone but Angela since they were all busy anyways.

As I exited the ballroom into the hallway making my way to the bathroom in the lounge. After I had finished using it I washed my hand and began to make my way out. As I was about to exit the lounge a group of 4 girls walked in and took a look at me before snickering to themselves. I frowned before look down to see if I had something on me but found nothing. They continued to block the door as they laughed. "What's so funny" I asked genuinely confused to what they were laughing about. One of the girls who had long black hair and blue eyes stepped forward before saying "It's just you look even uglier in person" I was shocked, I didn't know what to say. "Cat got your tongue" The girls next to her said while playing with her bleached blonde hair. "Just move and leave me alone" I said calmly and closing my eyes to try and calm myself. They just laughed again. "Awe are you gonna cry" The same girl said in a baby voice. I didn't say nothing. I didn't want to seem weak but at the same time I'm not going to say anything rude back just so they can flip the script and blame everything on me. "You're such a fool going after Jaeden like that. Do you expect him to fall for someone that looks like you. He's too good for you and you know it" The girl with the black hair spoke again as her friends all laughed along with her. "You don't know what you're talking about" I said looking down at the floor. I was trying not to let what they say bother me. I know they were just trying to get to me. I didn't even notice a tear slipped until it was too late and one of the girls noticed. "Wow you're literally so pathetic. Come on let's get back to the meet and greet and leave her to cry" She said to the others as they started to make there way out.

I didn't move though. Instead I went and stood in front of the mirror. I've always been a insecure about myself and just now started to accept myself. Then this had to happen. It was something out of a movie almost. I looked at myself and immediately felt disgusted. I hate giving some strangers this kind of power over me but, everything they said really got to me as much as I hate to admit it. Every time I wipe my tears away more fell. I'm just filled with disgust and almost hatred when I look at myself. Pathetic. She was right. I roughly wiped my tears away before reapplying my makeup to make myself seem fine. I quickly walked out the bathroom and back into the ballroom. I saw the group of girls in line and put my head down before returning to my previous spot. No one seemed to notice my absence or sudden change in mood which I was grateful for. I didn't need them worrying about me during a time where they should be enjoying everything . That would be selfish of me to do so anyways.

"Attention! 30 minute break for the cast! Please exit to your left!" Security instructed the group of people, mostly teenagers and young adults. This was the only break they got for the next couple hours. It was mostly a lunch break and a chance to relax. I sighed as the last few people exited the room. I was feeling a bit better now but not much. "Wow" Jadda exasperated. "That was a lot" Wyatt finished. We all laughed and agreed. We then all made our way to the corner of the room where the food and snacks were. Everyone grabbed something before sitting down at the table. I decided against getting myself a plate, I had lost my appetite a while back. Jadda was to my left and Jaeden was on my right with his hand holding my own. He took any chance he could to take my smaller hand into his larger one. Even something as simple and innocent as that sent butterflies flying through my body every time, a feeling I could never get tired of. "You not hungry?" Jadda asked before taking a bite of her sandwich. "No I ate before we left" Lie. She nodded her head before continuing her conversation with Wyatt. I leaned back in the chair and laid my head on Jaeden's shoulder. Jaeden looked down at me smiling before pecking my lips when no one was paying attention. Maybe they were right you know. Maybe he is too good for me. I mean I'm just a ordinary girl, he could be with someone more famous and prettier than me. But then again we're not even together. Therefor he can do whatever he pleases. I'm not afraid to admit that this boy has my heart, but I'm not sure if he may be looking for a relationship or just someone to fool around with. Now usually I would never think so lowly of Jaeden but what those girls said really got to me. I might be foolish to think what we have is real or maybe even delusional. I didn't know a tear had slip until Sophia looked at me with a look of confusion before motioning me to follow her. At least she was the only one that noticed.

I got up, releasing Jaeden's hand, and made my way toward where Sophia was. "What's wrong Kait"
"Noth-"
"It's obviously not nothing" I sighed. I was thinking of telling her what was actually wrong but decided against.
"I was just thinking of my mom" Lie Again.
"Oh Kaitlyn I'm so sorry." She said bringing me in for a hug. I gave her a sad smile before hugging her back. I mumbled back 'it's not your fault'. She made sure I was okay before walking back to her seat. I was about to make my way back before someone grabbed my wrist.

I turned around just to see Jaeden. He looked upset.
"So why don't you tell me what's really bothering you" As I tried saying the same thing I told Sophia he interrupted me.
"I don't buy it Kait. You can trust me you know. I just want to help" He tried to reason.
"I'm fine! Everything's fine!" I tried to laugh it off but somehow my laughs turned into sobs as Jaeden laid my head on his shoulder.
"It's okay if you don't want to talk about it right now, I get it. I just want to make you feel better babe" he sighed and kissed my forehead, hugging me closer. "I know." I said pulling away from his warm embrace. He wiped away my tears and kissed my lips softly mine reacting instantly against his own before pulling away. He hugged me again tighter this time, I put my hands around his waist letting his taller frame mold into my smaller one. This was just a little assurance that made me almost believe everything was going to be okay. Almost.

It was enough to calm me down in the moment. "Thank you Jaeden. For everything." I said resting my head against his chest. He didn't answer just kissed the top of my head before pulling back. "Now how about we go eat some cake before Jack and Finn eat it all" I laughed before agreeing with him and following hand in hand behind him.

The small break had pass and now it was time to get back to the meet and greet for them. I returned to the same place I had been before. Everything was running smoothly and even a few of there fans wanted a picture with me in it. I was shocked but of course I agreed. There were only a few people left. I then noticed the same group of girls from earlier. I held my breath and avoided eye contact as they one by one came up.
"Hey  I'm Gianna can you sign this for me Jae" the girl with the black hair said reaching out touching his shoulder. She caught my gaze on her hand and smirked. "Yeah of course" Jaeden smiled, completely oblivious of the girls flirtatious look. She bit her lip. "Thank you so much" She replied dragging her hand down his shoulders. She then asked for a photo which of course he didn't refuse. She asked him if he could kiss her cheek like he did with the others fan, but as he went to kiss her cheek she moved her head to make it into a kiss. She grabbed the back of his neck not letting him back out of the kiss. People were taking picture and videos of the kiss. Jaeden pushed her off completely shocked by her actions. "What the fuck!" He yelled at her which caught the attention of the security guard. Gianna didn't do anything but smirk and lick her lips. "You're a good kisser Jae" she winked before getting taken by security by Angela's request. We all looked at each other just in shock. Nothing like this had ever happened to them before and now it was all over the internet. Jaeden looked a mix of anger and shock as well. He took a look at us before storming off.

What. The. Fuck. Just. Happened.