my little secret ; lana del rey (DISCONTINUED)

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I honestly can't believe Lana told him, if he finds out who the person Lana is hooking up with i'm done for. My parents arrive at my room ready to go out, along with my sister and some random guy who she probably met today.

Lana and Brad appear in my room, both looking sweaty, they probably both fucked so that they'd forgive each other. Brad holds Lana's hand and intertwines their fingers, smiling at her at the same time. Yep they have forgave each other. "Babe where's your ring?" Brad asks Lana looking at her left hand. I look towards Lana confused but she avoids eye contact with me. I thought they weren't getting married. "I don't want to loose it" She tells Brad looking at him. "Don't be stupid i'll go and get it" Brad says and leaves to go back to his room. I can't fucking believe that she lied to me and said she's not getting married. I honestly thought that I could trust her, but i clearly can't, and that hurts.

"I'll go and get a table while we wait for Brad and Luke and stuff" I tell my parents who nod in agreement. "I'll come with you" Lana says and follows me as I completely ignore her. Why did she decide to come with me now. I walk quickly so that Lana struggles to keep up but she ends up stopping me my grabbing hold of my hand. "I'm sorry" She says to me, looking upset. "Whatever, honestly Lana have a good wedding but please do not invite me because i don't want to be anywhere near someone who lies" I tell her as we reach the restaurant, i hear her sign lightly. Just in time the rest of the family join us. "A table for 12 please" I say to the waitress who smiles and leads the way. I wait for Lana to sit down and then sit on the opposite end of the table so that i don't even have to make eye contact, but now i'm stuck with my dads golf club friends which is exciting. I sit on my phone for a bit, which nobody even seemed to notice because there too intrigued in golf talk. My phone buzzes and I smile in excitement because someone is actually talking to me.

From Lana,
Please talk to me, come sit over here or come to the bathroom or something. Me getting married doesn't change how I feel about you Lucy. You know how much I care about you.

I sigh and shake my head, closing my phone and putting it away. "Lucy that girl is smiling at you do you know her" My mom asks pointing to the table next to us. I look over and make eye contact with a girl, who looks really familiar. She stands up and comes over, "Lucy?" the girl says. Oh shit, that's my ex girlfriend Kelsey. Don't worry we didn't end badly, our relationship was more of a drug related one but then we both got sent to rehab and lost touch. "Kelsey?" I reply shocked. She smiles and holds her arms out for a hug which i stand up and accept. "How are you, you look great" She asks me smiling looking me up and down. "I'm really good, i've managed to stay clean for a while now which is good, what about you?" I ask her back with a smile on my face. "I'm good i've only recently got out of rehab because i tried to commit suicide in there but other than that i'm completely clean and decently happy" She admits too me. "That's amazing i'm so happy for you" I tell her. She honestly looks amazing the last time I saw her she was passed out looking pale and exhausted and now she's glowing and beautiful. "Wanna get out of here, family meals are boring" She asks me which makes me sigh in relief. I nod and let my mom know, who agrees to let me leave.

"So how's your love life going?" Kelsey wonders, as we walk outside and sit on a random bench in the dark. "Shit, a woman is having an affair with her fiancé with me and she lied to me and told me she wasn't getting married" I tell her honestly making her laugh. "Is that the girl that was sitting on your table looking all miserable and sad?" She asks again laughing. "Yeah that would be her" I answer laughing. "There she is" Kelsey says pointing behind me. I turn around and see Lana crying with my sister and Brad surrounding her. I want to know what's up with her and i really want to give her a hug right now but I'm still mad at her. My sister sees me and walks over to us. "What's going on?" I ask as she sits down on the bench. "I dunno Lana just snapped at Brad and was really angry for some reason, i've never seen her like that" My sister says. I look at Kelsey who is smiling at me, making me smile back. Lana is pissed off because of me. My sister walks away again back to Lana and Brad who are still arguing.

"Shit I better go back to my room before she sees me and starts wanting me to help her" I let Kelsey know. She sticks out her bottom lip cutely. "Fine but i'm walking you to your room" She tells me making me smile. Lana looks at me as we walk past with tears and pain in her eyes, breaking my heart in 2 pieces. I stop when we reach my room and begin to say goodbye to kelsey. "What's your number?" She says handing her phone to me. I type my number in and set my name with a love heart emoji next to it before handing her the phone back. "I'll see you soon" I say before unlocking my door and beginning to walk in. Kelsey holds onto my hand spinning me back round again and kisses me softly, completely shocking me. She smiles one more time before walking away, I turn my head seeing Lana stood there looking at me on her own. She looks completely broken and exhausted. "I know you hate me but I need you right now" She says and slowly walks closer to me. I can't say no to that right now.

I open my arms for her making her smile lightly and walk quickly before releasing her body into my arms and burying her head into the crook of my neck. She holds onto me tightly,  soaking my shoulder with her tears. I lead her into my room as she keeps hold of me tightly. "i'm sorry".