Omega

Chapter 6

I squirmed in a hard wooden chair, unable to find a comfortable position. I started at the white walls of Lydia's clinic, thinking back to what happened earlier. Lydia had shown up not soon after the rogues had ran away with Molly. Apparently Alpha Jasper had called her, saying I was in danger. She had tried to inspect me for I injuries but I waved her off, ushering her attention over to the Alpha. I could feel tears falling from my eyes as I stared intently at the blindingly white walls. What's wrong with me?

A low growl rumbled through the building and sent my thoughts spinning back to the present. There was some swearing and then a crash. The door clicked softly as Lydia entered the waiting room. She sighed and ran her fingers through her hair. I was instantly up on my feet and rushing over to her, fear written over my face. She shook her head. "Jasper will be fine," she said with a sneer. Her eyes glittered with disgust as she said "He's just sorting out some personal issues." She gave me an all too innocent smile as she said in a chipper voice, "you can enter, he up and awake." I tentatively walked across the room and opened the door. Alpha Jasper's back was facing me and my mouth dried as his rippling muscles moved as he lifted his shirt over his head.

He let out a growl as he slowly turned around. "Lydia, I had enough! Stop ticking your nose where it doesn't belong." He said in a dangerously low voice. His eyes widened when he saw me. I blushed, having caught him in an awkward moment and slowly made a move to close the door and leave. As I did, my eyes couldn't help but quickly flick their way down his... bound chest? Jasper had put on a tight black corset like thing but instead of having it around his wrist like some women do, he had it around his chest. This was not my business. I quickly slammed the door shut and leaned against it. It must have been a cast that Lydia gave him. He must have fractured some ribs. The door handle raddled and I shook my head. I needed to think. "Luna," Alpha Jasper said, his voice velvety soft, as if afraid of scaring off a trembling rabbit. "Please listen to me," he said, his voice straining through the door. "Please open the door." I was frozen. What was there to explain? He got hurt. He had to have gotten hurt. That's why he was here. In a clinic. My heart desperately tried to explain that to my hysterical mind but it refused to listen to reason. Alpha Jasper had lied to me. Everyone had lied to me. I crumpled to the ground. First I learned that Molly had screwed with my life since I was a pup, encouraging my parents to rebel and now I learned that my mate had lied to me. I took a deep breath and pressed my palms against my eyes, willing myself not to break apart.

There was a soft thump and a slide as Jasper sat against the door on the other side. "I never meant to lie to you or my pack," he started. "It just was all set out for me. My father had always wanted a son for his first born, but instead he got me. He raised me like a boy and dressed and treated me as such. I had planned to tell my pack once my father passed away. But I was too weak. I then told myself I would tell everyone once I had found my mate." Jasper's voice cracked as he said, "but it just worked out too perfectly. No one questioned a male alpha having a female mate." I nodded as quiet tears slipped down my face. I felt hollow as I heated Jasper's story. "By this time, I had already had expectations. Expectations I couldn't go back upon. So I didn't tell anyone." His voice cracked and he didn't continue.

I opened my mouth and softly mouthed out the words "but Lydia knew," knowing if I were to try to say those words out loud, my voice would crack. Slowly the argument in the kitchen and in the clinic just a few minutes ago came together; Lydia and Alpha Jasper were fighting about weather to tell the pack about his real gender. My heart ached and threatened to bleed as I pressed my fist to my chest, as if hoping to keep everything in place. I understood what I'd felt like to have your whole life planned out ahead of you, but I couldn't forgive being lied to. I took a deep breath and stood up as quietly as I could. I quickly scribbled a note on my pad of paper and slid it under the crack of the door.

I need to think
Alone

Not sure where I was going, I half stumbled half ran out of Lydia's clinic. I wandered up and down streets, watching as the world went by. But when I say? Should I act like I saw nothing? Should I pretend I'm not hurt? Do I even return? I watched as the sun went down and the city lights turn on. As the stars began the shine, I decided to return. Jasper had been nothing but kind to me and the past few days had made me able to past my past and live on the present for the first time in years. As I looked around, I realized I did not recognize where I was. My breaths were coming in and out quickly as I shivered in the night air. I needed to focus. I rubbed the tension out of my face as I took a deep breath and looked around. Soon enough, I came upon a tree that I recognized during my first trip to Alpha Jasper's office. I followed the trail of familiar landmarks; a rock, a street light, a flag, and a design of a house were a few things I had remembered that helped lead me to the glass skyscraper.

It was late and the doors were locked so I slouched by the entrance behind a bush. I pulled my arms around myself and closed my eyes to have some eye shut time, enjoying the sound of the world passing me by. The soft wall of a siren could be heard in the distance and cars occasionally honked, but no one bothered me as a few people walked by. I rested my head on my forearms that draped over my knees, as the crisp air lulled me to sleep. Alpha Jasper, please come find me.