AbsoluteZXING
Falling in love is not a choice but falling for the right person that's your choice.
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He was always the happiest with Jongin. The man proved to be a great contender of the Sun, almost shining as bright as it, slowly allowing people to feel his warmth. If someone asks Kyungsoo if he'd do anything differently if someone gave him a choice to do so he'd say no and reject it. Everything is perfectly fine like this.
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He remembered the first time they met, it was a very cloudy day. Kyungsoo hated every bit of it because he had to fire his closest friend at the company who was stealing from the project funds. He had a very hard time wrapping his head around it but all the facts and evidence was given to him. His friend stayed quiet but that knowing smirk he had on his face was enough for Kyungsoo to believe that he was a fool to become friends with him, to be used and tricked by the man he thought was his friend.
Enter Kim Jongin, the next in line head of Finance. It was the first time they met and it wasn't Kyungsoo's fault nor Jongin's. Kyungsoo just hated large gatherings and Jongin mostly kept to himself.
Jongin is popular, for some reason that's unknown to himself but very known to every department. The man had a way with words, he also has a perfectly proportioned body, light and graceful movements were noticeable too.
All the warning signs and alarms sounded in Kyungsoo's mind one time they spent a late night at the office, working on the costing and budgets. Jongin didn't mind and even offered to show him the progress of profits and amount of loss.
He didn't mind working late, he didn't mind sharing a couple of details about him, some secrets he exclusively told Kyungsoo and only him. Kyungsoo took this to heart, trusting the man little by little, admitting the pain he felt when his friend fooled him. Kyungsoo admitted that he was stupid but Jongin said that he was just too trusting.
Jongin was easy to get along with, the tall man was simple, he answered when spoken to, he don't usually speak his mind but when he does, everyone was bound to listen. That's why Kyungsoo couldn't help but listen to every word that came out of the man's mouth.
Words that easily turned into promises, promises that turned into lies and lies that turned into truths. Awful truths that led Kyungsoo in that moment, standing in front of Jongin's office, planning to surprise the younger, only he was the one who got surprised.
It wasn't Jongin's fault. He clearly made his intention known, that he wanted Kyungsoo as a friend but Kyungsoo was fragile, he was vulnerable at that time that he let his weaknesses overpower him, making him mistook kindness for love, happiness for warmth. Jongin is the sun, he became Kyungsoo's sun but clearly, he's not Jongin's sun, moon or stars for the matter.
He watched as the woman hugs Jongin tightly both of them swaying lightly as if listening to a slow song matching the beat in every step.
Kyungsoo's eyes met with Jongin's as he looked up, the younger's lips formed into a smile, slowly parting from his female partner. The woman turned and damn, she's so beautiful that Kyungsoo would definitely think about courting her if he wasn't as bent as a spring. The woman whispered something to Jongin and the taller nodded, waving at Kyungsoo to come in.
Kyungsoo's smile faltered, not wanting to feel this again, the feeling of betrayal, only this time, he was completely at fault. Instead of moving forward he turned and ran. He could hear Jongin calling from him but he ran. He ran so much that he didn't know there were tears streaming down his face.
His heart was pounding out of his chest, he couldn't hear anything anymore. It was suffocating, just like how he felt the first time but this was worse, he fell in love with Jongin. Months and months of pining eventually led to this moment, when his heart is ready to burst, ready to proclaim his love, but he was too late and mistaken.
