Friends With Benefits (Complete)

Let's Make Another

Breakfast was pretty shitty. Yes, it was a hell of a lot better than than the shit dinner that they gave us last night, but it was still pretty shitty. Logan barely touched his breakfast but I managed to eat all of mine.

Luckily I dind't throw up like the other 5 sad kids who did. I had to close my eyes each time someone threw up so I didn't instantly lose my breakfast. After breakfast, we were called into the main room, as Logan and I made our way into the main room I saw that the other people that were joining us were older women and men who seemed to be in their late 20's or early 30's.

There was a circle made of chairs and 1 couch in the middle of the room. "Take a seat everyone." said a woman. It clearly wasn't the therapist. This must be one of the groups that she isn't doing.

Logan and I took a seat on the couch. Logan sat down first and I sat on his lap, resting my head on his chest. It felt good to be close to Logan. It made me feel at home, and I needed that right now. Especially since I'm stuck in this hell hole for a good 2 weeks.

"Hello everybody, my name is Cassidy. I will be running the 1st session for you guys. For today, we are going to be going over our names and why we are here. Please don't limit what you say because you are scared. This is a safe place." Cassidy said. In our group, there were only 10 people including me and Logan.

"So this group is made for grief. Whether it is losing somebody in death or divorce. We all have lost someone." Cassidy said.

"Now, let's start with you," Cassidy said pointing at the woman next to me. "Well, my name is Barbara. I am 28. I am here because I tried to kill myself by hanging. I did it because I caught my husband going down on his secretary. And to make it worse, I found out that he got her pregnant." Barbara said.

Poor lady, that's gotta suck...

"I'm so sorry that happened to you, Barbara. But we can work through this." Cassidy said giving Barbara a small smile. "Now, how about one of you," Cassidy said looking at me and Logan. I looked at Logan. Begging him to speak first.

"I'm Logan. I'm here because my son died. I tried to slit my wrists." Logan said. I felt Loga stroking my side. "And what about you?" Cassidy asked me. "I'm Aria. I'm here because my son died, and I am here in the hell hole because I tried to slit my wrists." I said.

"My guess is that you guys were together right?" she asked us and we nodded.

"I've heard about what happened to you guys. I'm really sorry for what happened to you guys. And I hope we can help you here. You guys are young to even be going through that." Cassidy said. I moved even closer to Logan if it was even more possible.

"Now, how about you?" Cassidy said as she moved onto the next person. This guy looked to be about 25. His hair was dark red and he seemed quite unhappy.

"My name is Joshua. I am 24, I'm here because my girlfriend died in my fucking arms. She was hit by a car. I tried to kill myself by walking into oncoming traffic." Joshua said.

"Did she mean a lot to you?" Cassidy asked. "No, she didn't mean shit to me," Joshua answered sarcastically. "She meant the fucking world to me. She was the only person in this world who wasn't a fucking asshole to me." Joshua said.

"I loved her so much. I wanted her back. And I knew when I lost her, that I couldn't have her back. And my first thought was, that if she couldn't come back to me, why not just join her. I can't live without her," Joshua said.

Joshua looked over to us. "Don't take her for granted. I did with my girlfriend. You only regret it when you never get the chance to apologize or tell them that you love them." Joshua said to Logan.

"Do you regret not telling her that you love her?" Cassidy asked Joshua. "The few words I told her before she died were somethings that I wish I never said. I told her that she was a bitch, a whore, and a fucking loser. I told her that she would be alone her whole life." Joshua said.

I looked at Logan. Logan pulled me close to him and whispered into my ear. "I love you Aria. I'll never leave you again baby. I swear it." After Logan spoke, he kissed my forehead.

"Okay, group time is over. We will finish this conversation up tomorrow. For those of you who are new, it is free time. You may go back to your room, use the bathroom, grab a quick snack, or you may go and read in the library." Cassidy said before standing up from her chair and waving goodbye. I got up from Logan's lap and stood next to the couch.

"What do you want to do?" I asked Logan. "Let's just go lay down," Logan said before standing up and walking back to our room. I followed him down the hall and into our room. I half-closed the door, giving us as much privacy as we were aloud. Which clearly wasn't much.

"So, what did you think ofhte whole group session?" I asked Logan. "I thought it was boring. I'm most probably going to start zoning out. I hate listening to these peoples sad and depressing stories. It's not like I don't feel bad for them, it's just that I can't listen to people's heartbreak and loss. It just makes me feel shitty about Kayden. That's all. I want to forget about him. I want to go back in time and not get you pregnant." Logan sais as he sat down on his bed.

"You reget getting me pregnant?" I asked Logan. "Sorta. Yes and no at some points. I regret different things. Now, believe me. I love Kayden. I wanted to be with you and we could all be a family. I never regret having sex with you and getting you pregnant. I know I just said I would change things. But it's a bit more different. I wish I could go back in time and make sure it dind't hurt as bad. Or maybe we could have saved him." Logan admitted.

"I miss him, Logan. I miss his little kicks and feeling him. I may have hated the morning sickness and him sitting on my bladder 24/7, but I would do anything to get him back." I said. "I wish he never died Aria. You and him were my everything. You guys were the only thing I ever needed in life." Logan said.

I stood up from the bed, the twisted thought was now buried deep inside my mind. I regret ever thinking about it.

"What if we could get him back?" I asked Logan as I took a seat on his lap, straddling him. "What do you mean?" Logan asked me. "We may not be able to get him back, but maybe we can make another baby," I said smiling. "Aria, what are you saying?" Logan asked me shocked.

"Logan, I want you to get me pregnant again."

Dear Readers,

I hope you enjoyed the chapter, I don't know when the next one will be out. I am usually doing at least 400 words per day, but I'm also working on 3 other books at the moment. So it may take 3-5 days for each chapter to come out!