Friends With Benefits (Complete)

I've Been Falling For A Long Time

Aria's POV

Logan and I haven't really been talking much after the argument or i guess you could say blow up i had. I came home the next morning and told Logan that I wasn't in the mood to talk.

After that, we just didn't talk about it. Then soon, things became awkward and then we just didn't talk at all.

I mean everyonce and while we would talk. But it wants usually much to be honest. Usually a quick hello or goodbye is all.

I haven't spoken to since our fight. The most action in talking we had was when I told him that I wanted to move into anther bedroom and not slept with him anymore.

That did piss him off. I guess it was the last straw.

Logan and I always sleep in the same bed together. And I guess once I told him that, it was like everything that we had been arguing about finally got shown to him.

I've been pretty upset and depressed these last few weeks. Everyday I do the same damn thing.

I go to school/college then come back to the apartment and just stay in my room while Logan and Kaylee usually hangout in the living room or they are in his bedroom.

I don't really care that they hangout alone. I guess the only thing that would bug me is if they had sex. And I don't think they have. I haven't heard any noises if you know what I mean.

And if they were to have sex, I would know. I sleep in the room right next to Logan's and I would definitely hear whatever would be happening.

I've been quite lonely. In more ways then one. I did end up finding this really nice guy named drew. He is so sweet and loves to hangout. I've been talking to him for a good 2 weeks.

Logan hasn't met him, shit, he doesn't even know that I'm hanging out with drew to begin with.

Am I a shitty friend for not telling him that I met someone?

Please don't answer that...

I miss Logan so much, even if I do have so much hate for him. I miss him in so many ways.

Logan was my best friend, he was the closest thing I had to family. Especially since I hate my mother and my mother thinks it's okay to trade up.

I wish things were easier. But clearly they aren't. Life isn't going to give me any second chances.

Clearly.

And I hate that. But life isn't fair and I've learned that. "Aria?" I heard my name called from the other side of my door.

I look up from the book that I had in my hand and respond to the voice, "yes?"

"Can I come in?" Logan asked. I recognized the voice now. It was Logan.

"Sure." I said. My door then opened revealing Logan. He walked toward me and took a seat on my bed.

"So, what did you want?" I asked him breaking the long and awkward silence that now filled the room.

"I just wanted to see you, and talk you. It's been 3 weeks Aria. I miss you. I want to be around you for fucks sake. I want my best friend back." Logan said as he took his hand in mine and looked into my eyes.

I instantly took my hand back and looked at him. "You has you chance, you didn't give a shit about me. You left me in the dirt as soon as you started dating her." I told Logan.

"No, no I didn't Aria. You left me. You were so pissed off that I ended the friends with benefits, you thought it would just be easier to not even talk to me at all. So you can't blame me. Yes, I left you. But only because you left me. I have you space. I thought you would come back. But clearly I was wrong." Logan said.

"Look, I was pissed that you wanted to end it because I needed it Logan. I needed to be close to you in that way. It helped with everything. I wish you could understand that. I just needed the sex to make me feel better, then you took that away from me. And it just made things worse. I love you Logan so much. And I wouldn't never do anything to hurt you." I told him.

"Aria, you should have told me. I would have figured something out." Logan told me.

I shook my head. "You would ave just said that you don't want to cheat anymore. Then I would have to make you chose between me and Kaylee. And then you would chose me then I would have to deal with that guilt." I told him and he shook his head.

"No, I wouldn't have. I would have continued to date Kaylee. But I would give you anything you want Aria. You are mine, and I am yours. I will do anything for you baby. I promise." Logan told me.

I got up a sat on his lap so I was straddling him.

"So what? Are we doing this again?" I asked Logan. Logan nodded. "Yeah, I've missed you so fucking much." Logan said before kissing me hard and flipping me over.

"Logan." I said as Logan kissed my neck. He loved away from my neck and looked at me. "Yeah?" Logan asked. "I can't do this." I told him before shoving him off of me.

"What do the mean?" Logan asked me. "I can't keep sleeping with you while we both are dating somebody. I need to know that I have somebody serious. I can't be 30 years old and have a husband and continue to cheat with you." I told him.

"So what do the want?" Logan asked me. "I'm saying, that if you have a girlfriend, I won't be sleeping with you. I also can't keep doing this friends with benefits. I want something real." I said

Logan stayed silent for a few minutes then looked at me. "Fine." Logan said.

"Fine what?" I asked him confused.

"Fine. I'll break up with Kaylee. I don't love her. I want to be with you. I really like you Aria. I know we weren't suppose to like or even fall for each other. But I think I'm falling for you Aria."

Hey Guys! So I decided to cut this book a bit more short cause I've been losing a bit of interests in it. But I will finish the book. This book will only have a few more chapters! Sorry about the short chapter. The book should be finished in a week or so.