My Silver Lining

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JEMA'S POV

Ever since we got that Temporary Restraining Order against Fhen, mas naging magaan na ang pakiramdam ko.

Days passed without incident kaya unti unti ng bumabalik ang confidence kong lumabas and go back to my normal routine.

I truly believe that we can now move on and put this behind us.

Sigurado akong matatakot na si Fhen na pagtangkaan pa ako ulit. Kung may mangyari man sa akin ay alam na nyang sya ang magiging number one suspect.

Pero si Deanna di parin mapakali. Bantay sarado parin ako sa kanya kaya pa minsan minsan, I sneak out.

Di naman ako pumunta sa malayo. Just the grocery shop or coffee shop down the road at matao naman dun.

I need to feel like I'm still in control of my life. I don't want to be a prisoner of this trauma.

I don't want to let it stop me from doing normal everyday things.

Ever since we got back from Batangas, I feel more relaxed.

Gusto ko sanang i-open up kay Deanna na baka pwede na akong bumalik sa condo ko. Para di na rin sya mahirapan.

Kaso ang hirap maka hanap ng tyempo. Baka kasi ma offend sya.

I'm in bed going through our pictures in Batangas nang biglang tumunog yung bobble head keychain ko. Senyales na malapit na si Deanna.

It plays out different Kalimba tunes randomly. Today it played to the tune of Can't Help Falling in Love by Elvis Presley.

It was a slow melody.

Bumangon na ako para abangan si Deanna sa door.

Just as I reached the door, Deanna also opened it.

For a split second, I saw the tiredness in her eyes but she immediately smiles as soon as she sees me.

I hugged her tightly.

Her keychain was producing the same Kalimba tune.

We started swaying slowly.

Deanna let out a small laugh as she twirled me around with her arm.

Nag slow dance kami sa may pinto.

Sa pagkakataong ito, binitawan ko lahat ng stress sa isip ko at hinayaan ang sarili kong tangayin ng munting sandaling ito.

I live for these moments. These small precious moments with Deanna is what reminds me every single day why I need to keep going.

She is both my strength and my weakness.

"I missed you today" she whispered softly.

Her lips on the top of my head.

"I missed you too"

I looked up to her and she gave me a sweet kiss.

"I could really get used to this. You being here. Feeling ko mag asawa na tayo eh hehe" sabi ni Deanna.

Mas lalong na guilty tuloy ako sa balak kong bumalik ng condo ko.

"Kung maka 'asawa' ka ha kala mo madali lang yan haha" sagot ko dito.

"Alam ko namang mahirap Langga but syempre san pa ba tayo patungo? I'm very certain that I want to marry you one day" seryosong sabi ni Deanna.