Poetry-The Unspoken Words

Poem_11_Goodnight✨

Tears stained on the pillowcase,

Silently, I sniff out my pain.

I hold my breath until no trace

Of my unwilled whimpers remain.

The quiet night, I loved most,

But hated, when I was at worst

And I did my best to hide it all,

Especially when I lost control..

My heart crumbles at the memory,

Of you crushing it mercilessly.

Your face crosses my mind slowly,

And I bite my tongue, a bit too harshly

I take a breath in too deep,

And release, pretending to be asleep.

I dig my nails and grab the sheets

To cover my face and muffle my weeps.

It is hard to fake a smile,

When truly I'm breaking inside...

It is tough to pretend,

That I am fine

But nobody understands,

That I need time.

Years and years of loving you,

Can't simply go away.

And even though I'm losing you,

I still can't bring myself to say...

Darling, I love you

Even if you don't..

Darling, I miss you...

Even when I'm not alone.

My friend complains about her life,

I try my best to give her advice,

And I know I should listen and try

To mend my heart and use my mind.

But here I am, past midnight,

Cuddled with myself, holding on tight,

The moon and stars and the creeping light,

As if mocking me for crying in this night.

But darling, I loved you,

And I still do.

I try hard not to,

But it's the truth.

And I tried to grow hatred,

But I ended up in pain,

Thought doing what they said,

Would be the only way.

They say what's to like,

You're nothing special.

They don't know what it's like,

To love the same angel and devil.

Then again, I'm here,

And you're not beside me,

But imagining your feel,

Is the only way I can sleep...

I hate you,

Or at least I try..

I love you,

It's something I can't deny...

So sweet dreams, darling,

I'll try to survive,

The sun is rising,

So, Goodnight...

~From the Heart