Poetry-The Unspoken Words

Poem_13_Innocent Overdose

Behind a pretty smile,

Lie a thousand cries.

Behind 'I'm okay, I'm alright',

Is the farthest to being fine.

Maybe I liked the way you looked at me,

That you looked at nobody else.

When our shoulders brushed, you said nothing..

Maybe you liked it, like myself.

The way you talked or shifted nervously..

I was way more nervous than you were.

When my hand and your elbow touched accidently,

You clicked your tongue like it was a big deal.

I noticed the little things

That sparked in your eyes,

I keep reminiscing,

The days that have gone by..

How can I explain a secret so deep?

In your eyes, a thousand layers beneath..

I'm going crazy, really, I'm almost physcho,

Replaying moments and complicated scenarios.

What's so hard if I just want to know,

If the feelings I got were mutual?

I'm desperate, I used to be sane.

Now all I know is that I'm going insane.

You took a huge piece of me, with you it will stay,

And left a dark hole, more like a cave.

You live there now, you control my mind,

There is no letting go or going back in time.

Hating then loving however I try,

It is now I realise that I've committed a crime.

I crave the touch that you never gave me,

The warmth of your hug in a cold night,

But even in the crowd, it is lonely,

I can feel inside, the bittersweet ice..

You cross my mind back and forth,

Until I hit the pillow, and inhale,

My eyes are closed, I can smell your odor,

See you in the blackness of nowhere.