Poetry-The Unspoken Words

Poem_8_ A father like you

I put on the brave cast,

Pretending not to care.

I know you will not last,

Just like any other father.

I know you're suffering

And I am too..

All from watching

You do what you can do.

You sit and hold my hand,

Stare at me knowingly.

It's like you understand

All my burdens and fears.

But I shut you out,

Like I did with everyone.

You never yelled or talked loud,

You were never just anyone..

I wait until you leave

So I can hold myself and cry..

Then I bring up my sleeve,

And rub the tears from my eyes.

I say that I'm fine,

I say that I'm alright,

I don't tell you that I'm dying inside.

You stay calm and put up with me,

When you're in agonizing pain.

I hate when you don't see,

Nothing you did was in vain.

I love you like I've never loved.

I hate that I can't speak up.

I try to tell you through hugs,

Send you love that will never stop.

You carry the weight of the world,

Hide all the pain and shoot a smile.

You talk and laugh like you're not hurt,

But I see through every muffled cry.

You're here when I have the flu,

You're here when I feel blue.

You listen and make my wishes come true.

You're a fallen star, the bravest I ever knew.

And so to God, I pray,

Through a hushed, pleading voice

Before sleeping or during the day..

To bring you utter joy.

A phone, a TV, a bed, and a roof,

Were never what I wanted from you.

Your love, your ear, your smile and the truth,

Were always here, but I never took the cue.

I may seem an ungrateful kid

From the things I say or do,

And it takes a lot to admit

That I don't deserve a father like you.

~From the Heart