black. \ nct jaehyun × blackpink rosé.

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rosé x jaehyun

this chapter matches slower beat songs or is just a sad scene.

rosé

im sat in a club, surrounded by drunken men.

the intoxicating smell of alcohol tightens my throat, its slightly harder for me to breathe.

its been a month.

after jisung's death.

i cried for hours and hours for every inch. the only person who had hope, who encouraged me is now gone.

well, i guess i already explained it. but every part of my body aches. everything aches even if i try to pick myself up and comfort myself to the fullest.

jaehyun

i was recently released from court.

for the death of my father.

i dont know if i did it by accident or not. i feel like it was me but it wasnt me. i felt like i let my anger out but it feels wrong.

killing others is bad right? making someone feel sad is bad right?

i walk into a club. i know, unusual of me, right?

everyone around me was drunk i honestly didnt appreciate it. i felt disgusted.

i just randomly took a seat and sighed.

rosé

i turn to the guy next to me. he was handsome. but too handsome to be my type to be honest.

i kind of laughed. or scoff? i dont know. i just breathed through my nose and drank from my water bottle.

"are you a rapist?" i ask without any eye contact.

he has a low voice. it was filled with different emotions of experience. "no. why? do i seem like one?"

"what a shame. youre not a rapist." i sigh. he stared at me with some kind of look on his face. i couldnt read it. whether it was pity, lust or disgust. "im not a prostitute and i dont want to have sex with you."

"do i look like a rapist?"

"dont talk to me."

"...i feel insecure now. do i really look like a rapist?" he asked himself.

"you seem pure. judging from your voice."
he doesnt seem like the type of person to make me hate myself and my body. thats why i shouldnt talk to him. "i guess you dont often go to clubs."

"i dont. i think being in the worst environment would make me feel relieved with being in a slightly less uncomfortable environment." he paused for a second and then continued. "or im probably here because i cant die happy."

i turned to him with a look of affinity. "do you want to die with me? its better than dying alone, more or less with someone you love."

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