Diary of a One Sided Lover | JJK FF | (Completed)

An approach

Dear Diary,

I've been smiling like an idiot the entire day...

Trust me, I tried hard not to but this uncontrollable grin won't leave my lips..

Mom got all curious about this 'unnecessary smile' and kept questioning with her eyebrow arching and the notorious smirk on her face...

I just brushed off the topic with a shrug and lip syncing 'nothing'

Well.... My smile isn't really unnecessary...

The Kdrama that I'm currently binging... the main leads have finally   confessed their feelings..

And the scene was so overwhelming that I haven't yet been able to get over thier confession..

Omg... I sound crazy and obsessed

But how do I hold myself when this drama world has the power rescript my mind, lift my spirits and all the  wrongs doesn't seem discouraging instead FIGHTING!

My day was unlike the usual..

The first half was a 'regular day'  but during the break while I was congratulating Lisa, Rose and few of their group mates for receiving the title of best presentation Jungkook approached us...

I took a step back, pulled out my phone and turned the other way round pretending as though 'I too had a great social life'

Well... I didn't want to see him... But my ears pricked when I heard Lisa grin a 'thank you' and hear her call my name

I wanted to sink into the earth or become invisible instead of facing him but then finally after a few deep breaths and mentally curses... I turned, not prepared to have 3 pair of eyes fixed on me...

Lisa, Rose and Jungkook.

Lisa had a chocolate in her hand and there was one in Jungkook's as well.

I think Jungkook read the confusion on my face..

He apologised for yesterday saying that, he couldn't give me a piece of chocolate and so he got chocolates for me and Lisa as well.

I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING

At first I refused, telling him that I'm not fond of chocolates but he kept insisting.

Refusing again would be too rude and maybe 'playing hard' according to his pov so I accepted the chocolate, with a thank you.

  The moment Jungkook left...

Lisa and Rose began showering me with questions as to why did he give me chocolate.

How would I know?

Honestly, this question left me equally puzzled

Their wild guesstimate going crazy
that he likes me or else why would he get me a chocolate..

I denied not wanting them to postulate a stupid theory based on a random act of 'kindness' or 'mannerisms'

Wrapping up the discussion I elucidated that it may be awkward for Jungkook to get a chocolate only for Lisa and so wanting to be fair he got me one.

It could possibly be...

Jungkook didn't want everyone to assume things going on between him and Lisa?

Well idk, just another presumption.

Okay an honest confession...

Jungkook's sweet gesture left me overwhelmed..

I hadn't asked him but, he got me a chocolate...

Hold on, that doesn't mean that he likes me...we're only classmates.

In fact I doubt even if he knows my name because I have never heard him call me by my name not even once.

I don't want to assume anything wrong.

It's not easy to get over someone you've been silently loving for a long time ..

Bottled up feelings.

My thoughts are straight..I'm not falling for anyone..

I have made it clear that I will never fall for anyone and it's never going to be Jeon Jungkook.

We are no match

After working on this presentation with him I've got to know him better. He is fun loving, sweet, charming and helpful person but..

But liking him?

Not a question

I believe he's already seeing someone

Woah! TMI

I really need to keep myself out of his business..

Hope we never work together in the future.

Tomorrow is my presentation and I hope the hard work pays off..

Fingers crossed.

Good Night

Love
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