Diary of a One Sided Lover | JJK FF | (Completed)

Odd feelings

Dear Diary,

So sorry for not writing lately.. my days are too long and nights short since exams are round the corner.

Yeah the pressure gets extreme when I mark a ❌ on the calendar as the semester approaches

We've been having back to back classes so all study and no K-dramas

I do feel sad and even frustrated after a point but music heals like nothing else..

My playlist on loop and we're good..

But once we're done with exams..
Nothing separates me from my FFs, Drams, Doritos and my comfy bed..

About Jungkook?

We do have some bizarre scenes going on

After the canteen scene I met Jungkook a couple of times face to face 'casual smiling' BUT for some unknown, stupid, abnormal and ridiculous reason we wear the same colour atleast thrice a week

It does sound scripted and dramatic but it's true!

Ohh let me tell you...

This observation was brought to me by my so called 'friends' Lisa and Rose, who never let go a chance to tease me..

Whenever we happen to wear the same colour, they'll josh about it by
calling out to him and greetings him...

I can't sit dumb right? So I do nod and kinda mumble a 'hey' while he flashes a bunny smile

That's where these girls get an opportunity to smirk and tease..

I do feel a churn in my stomach when he shows up and my heart races at his bunny smile

The reason is quite simple I don't want these girls to jabber any sort of nonsense

Nothing is the same..

We are not strangers anymore but that doesn't mean we're friends..

Something in between classmates and friends? Maybe

I misunderstood Jungkook.. he's a nice guy with a clean heart..

It's not his fault that girl's surround him.. he's good looking, smart, every teacher's choice..

I guess my judgment was too quick

Lisa is trying to get close to him lately and I don't see why when she's already dating Baekhyun, which was not known to me until Dae-hyun broke the news.

I was totally shocked when I came to know the girl who I had been friends with since childhood didn't tell me she's dating?

Which close friend would hide such an important news?

I had known Baekhyun we were classmates before.

We didn't speak much but, later when he came to know that I was aware about his relationship with Lisa he approached me and that's how we began talking.

Baekhyun is average to me. He is not so good not so bad. You can approach him if you need help.

Inspite of Lisa keeping this dating thing hidden I decided not to let it affect our friendship.

I never questioned why did she hide all this from me.

I don't know about her but to me friendship really mattered over the years even our parents had become friends.

Sometimes I feel she is cheating on Baekhyun the way she flirts with other guys I don't think it's right, there has to be a line.

I don't like when Lisa tries to get close to Jungkook with the fake sweet talking

I mean there's NO NEED TO GET ALL FLIRTY, THE GUY IS NOT INTERESTED IN YOU AND YOU CAN CLEARLY READ THAT ON HIS FACE.

This clingy attitude irks me

He already has enough girls buzzing around him, there's no need for her to join in.

You know what, I wonder if he is really dating?

The other day, I heard Rose say that day there are rumours of him dating some beautiful girl in the other class

Of course he will be going for a beautiful girl it's not my k drama where the male lead falls in love with the soul and accepts her the way she is.

And it's not that Jungkook will fall for me or something

Wait why do I care or do I ?

Why do I care what he thinks about me?

What is that feeling when I see Lisa and the other girls close to him?

What thoughts does he have when he hears my name?

I feel my heart skip a beat when I see his name pop up in our class group chats....

Where is all this leading?..

Am I really falling for Mr. High and Mighty?

In search of answers...

- Y/N