I THINK IM IN LOVE
LIKE FOR REAL
AND IT SUCKS
I DONT WANNA BE IN LOVE
I DONT LIKE SAYING THAT I AM
BECAUSE IM ALWAYS LIKE "I hate it when a guy says he loves me the minute we get together..." BUT WITH THIS GUY
UGH
WITH THIS GUY
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THATS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW.
He's so perfect. He's so just.....AHHHHHHHH.
Okay okay.
So my friend set me up with this dude (thank you so fucking much, you're the bestest) and we started talking. And immediately things just, idk, I was really comfortable talking to him. I assume that he was comfortable talking to me too.
We talked fooooor maybe 27 hours straight. Something around there and it was...it was really nice having someone with you, to talk to, or just relax with. Even if it was over the phone, it was amazing.
We called every night, every morning, whenever we had free time really. Even if he had something to do, he will still call me.
But I don't like him talking to me. It's not his voice, his personality, or anything like that. It's just because he looses sleep talking to me. He doesn't sleep because he's talking to me and he rarely eats because he's 'fat'. It makes me mad. That's basically the one downside of him. He gives me so much attention that he forgets to give attention to himself. He needs to take care of himself, and spend time with his family and friends, not just me.
It is sweet though.😂
We went on a date...
It was the first 'date' I've ever been on. I even told my whole family about him. They were all skeptical, I guess because they didn't know how either of us was/were (don't know how to English) going to behave.
But once everyone heard that I didn't look at him, or talk to him, or kiss him, or hug him, or hold hands with him....they liked him and started yelling at me.
My mom absolutely LOVES him.
She told me, "you have a great thing in front of you, and you're doing nothing about it."
I keep trying to make excuses to why I didn't do all of that shit but...I'm pretty sure it's because my heart would have stopped😂😂I'm so...idk dudes...I've never felt like this with anyone else.
Well, I'm gonna go have a long, amazing, call with him right now. I'll probably spill more about him later.
~𝓐♥️
