Alright, I know that no one reads these but like...UGH OKAY.
So I got with this dude, mkay?
He's nice, funny, blah blah blah.
We were good friends, and everything was fine until we got together. And when I say together I mean boyfriend and girlfriend status.
We shall call him...Joe.
So joe and I got together and he completely changed. Well, he changes from us talking as friends to us talking as a couple.
Now, that sounds like "Aw, he treats you with more love, and respect, and BLAH BLAH BLAH." Yes, he does. And that's what pisses me off.
I don't know if I'm weird or anything but...OKAY LETS JUST GET INTO MY PROBLEMS.
Joe said that he loves me, after 4 days of 'dating'. And I clearly told him that I wouldn't want someone saying that they loved me until like, around 2-3 months of dating, at least.
4 days.
I get it, I'm amazing, but GOSH DIDDLY DARN IT, I DONT LIKE THIS.
And then he talks to me in that stupid fucking baby voice. I hate it so much.
He's three years older than me.
Oh oh oh. Can't forget to mention that this is a long distance-online relationship. Which I told myself that I wouldn't do because, murderers.
Anyways, that fucking voice. He can talk all chill and joke around then out of no where he does this stupid high pitched voice, it sounds like when I'm talking to a dog or baby, and then he says shit like, "I wuv u sooo much." AND LIKE, IT WOULD BE OKAY IF IT WAS IRONIC, YOU KNOW, A HAHA FUNNY. BUT NO. UGH. I HATE IT.
And whenever I call him it feels like a chore.
Now that I haven't called him in a while, I feel a lot better actually. I've been getting more sleep. Eating more. Less crying.
I know that-that sounds dramatic but we go on calls from 11 pm to like 5 am. It's draining.
But Joes a cool guy.
He's a good friend.
He's funny.
He's nice.
It's just I don't want to be in a relationship with him anymore. And now we move onto the big problem.
I don't know how to break up with him.
Okay, that's a lie, Caitlin has already told me how to multiple times. I just don't want to. I'll feel bad. We've only been in a relationship for like, idk a week. I feel like right now would be a good time to do it, because we aren't so into the relationship but it seems like he already is.
He's talking about our future together, telling his mom about me, where we would live, and it's just weird.
I can't lie, I do that. Well, maybe not on the first week of dating someone. But I do that with my best friend, behind his back.
That sounds bad but, you know, that's something you do, secretly, with your best friend so that your boyfriend won't think that your moving too fast. And like...this just sucks.
Caitlin is telling me to break up with him, and I'm gonna do it, but I gotta get some balls. And I have to get some balls before August 12th or else Caitlin will tell Joe herself.
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