"Are you at all haunted by memories past? Are you ready to make this one breath your last? Is your chest so heavy you're ready to leave? Or are you just hoping that someone will grieve?"
-The Amity Affliction, Chasing Ghost
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Ace,
Alice looks different. Her face is still her face but it dosen't look like her face. I doubt you understand what I'm trying to say. And her hair is... I don't know. It's like she changed but she didn't.
she got older without me and I'm sad that I've already excepted this.
She was there when we pulled into the drive. She hugged me and I understand now that when I said home that one entry I wasn't referring to the physical location where I live. She made me feel warm. Sometimes people don't realize but when you don't eat your body dosen't function and who needs a healthy self heating system. Fuck staying warm. ("The cold never bothered me anyway." I'm sorry. I had to)
She forced this heat into my skin that I only feel when I'm laying under seven duvets and a throw cover and I wanted to cry but she already was and we both couldn't be. Besides, I'm older and I should protect her, not the other way around but I still held her like the life line she is. Mrs. Parker said that we looked alike and that made me think of you. I'm sorry.
Alice is taking me to meet that guy, Travis, tomorrow. Things are falling into place. I've given up optimism. I'm sorry but I don't know how many more times I'll be writing to you. I'd say that I'd be seeing you soon, but if there is a Someone out there who distributes the dead between an eternity of happiness or fire, I'll more than likely burn. And even if I don't believe in the same thing or anything or everything I'll pray to anyone who is willing to hear that you didn't end up the same. You were a good man, dad. You were my fucking hero and i fucking failed you
im going im sorry.. im so fucking sorry
-daniel
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Hello, My Name Is Daniel
Teen FictionDaniel's mom sends him away to a boarding school she believes will help him. Or at least, that's what the doctor told her as she signed the papers after Alice, his sister, brought him to the hospital. Battling depression, faced with neglect, dealing...
