A secret surprise project for a 1 year anniversary:
High school; 29 stories of happiness, sadness, confusion, frustration, and our relationship as a whole.
-inspired by my parents
The weather was nice, the wind was breezy, everything about that day just felt calm.
I was having a pretty good day.
The night before, I messaged Jerry (friend of Lin since first grade and fellow classmate), seeking for some guidance. Lin had encouraged me that night saying that he believed in me...which took me by surprise. From my experience, Lin wasn't the type of person who was necessarily always positive or encouraging. He was more silent and would support you from rhe sidelines.
Jerry was surprised Lin had said that to me as well.
"He's been changing gradually," Jerry noted. "I wouldn't rule out him actually being positive."
Suddenly I felt special.
So I gave myself a slap and told myself I needed to stop before I fell into the hole again.
You are NOT special!
As Jerry and I continued to chat about Lin, he sent me this graph titled "Growth of Lin".
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x-axis is for grade level
Jerry also said he was surprised I had gotten Lin to open up so much, once again making me feel special. When our conversation ended (at 2A.M.) I felt a lot better.
The next day was a Saturday, meaning I could spend the day doing anything or just walking around outside. I don't exactly remember what I did that morning, but I do recall walking outside and telling Lin about my conversation with Jerry.
He wasn't surprised nor upset (plus he liked the graph). After a little more begging when I got home...he finally agreed to answer two questions regarding who he liked.
She was in my class.
I freaked out.
What if it was me.
I anxiously texted my friend Salad (:3) and asked her what to do. Looking back on it, pretty much everyone told me that he probably liked me but I didn't take their words for it since I was in denial ^-^.
During the time I went to eat dinner, Salad asked Lin "do you like her" to which he didn't reply, so she straight up said, "I'll assume you do then."
When I got back, I finally made him confirm it to me clearly.
I also roasted him about being 9 days late and how he could've just told me before instead of letting me suffer for 3 whole months.
Then I remembered Bob.
Ah.
That's why he didn't tell me.
Because freaking Bob was still in China having a fantastic vacation, and ignoring almost all my messages!
Halfway through our discussion on why he liked me, denial started kicking in my mind.
"Hey, you're not just saying this so I feel better about myself, right?" I asked hesitantly.
Lin was surprised. "Why the heck would I do that? I can assure you I wouldn't say that just for the sake of saying it."
