29 Stories of You and Me

12-Stress and Breakdowns

The best way to begin this part is: high school is rough.

After winter break ended and school started again, everyone kind of wanted to kill themselves. It was a rough time to go through. I can't say we're making it through alive, but we're alive as of now (so that's good, right?). 

Anyone who knows me well will know I hate math. One wrong move and everything would end up being wrong. English was much better. Usually, if your answer or reasoning was justifiable, it was also right. Physics was stressful too. Pretty much all my classes were stressful at this point, but especially math and physics. 

It got to a point where if I couldn't solve a homework problem I'd start freaking out and sometimes cry. It depended on whether or not I was having a good day too, but most days ended badly. Tests were just a field full of landmines to walk into. One problem wrong and your whole grade could die. 

Of course, this meant that Lin had to listen to all of this crying and not lose it. 

Sometimes I'd hang up while we were calling and go cry in my room before coming back and trying to regain my composure. Sometimes I'd cry there and then. It wasn't very healthy.

Eventually, Lin and I had a very fragile relationship. It wasn't the kind where you would expect one person to suddenly bring up breaking up, but one where disagreements, crying, and compromises were made on a daily basis.

It wasn't healthy, but I was reassured by the fact that Lin and I had a strong bond and wouldn't break up, so long as we could stand the stress and breakdowns and make compromises whenever there were disagreements.

I end this chapter with a note:

This was short af.