29 Stories of You and Me

9-Reassurance and Pranks

October

Although it was loooonnngg overdue...

I finally told Bob I wanted to breakup! It was the BEST feeling in the world! If you ever need to breakup with someone you should definitely do it over text because there was NO WAY for us to talk in person.

At this time, Lin and I weren't really...dating. We were just friends who knew that there was a mutual attraction between the two of us but neither of us were sure of how to deal with it :D. So we tossed it aside and chose to not think too much about it.

A few things happened that helped me decide what to do with this situation. I can't remember the order of which happened first or next anymore but they're all fresh on my mind, so I'll write as much as I can remember.

First off, I consulted my good friend Jenny. Long ago, when Bob and I had started dating, she hardcore disapproved. She was blunt and brutal, saying she most definitely did not like Bob and thought he was way too depressing and would only make me depressed too (not wrong).

Buuut...at the time I thought she was too picky. She had so many requirements that a guy had to meet to be "worthy", so I assumed she was biased.

This time, I decided to properly consult her and follow her advice.

At first, I was worried. Lin often mentioned about how people thought he was depressed in school, so what if Jenny had a bad first impression?

To my surprise, she actually approved.

Well, she had to GUESS who the guy was first.

"I give up, just tell me T-T," she begged.

"Nahh keep guessing."

"...you're a terrible person. Did you know that?"

But she finally got it and asked me why I would like Lin. So, I told her that he helped me with breakdowns, gave me food, and even let me keep his calculator when I lost mine!

Then I asked if he was better than Bob...

"Maybe a little better," she admitted. "But your taste in men still isn't up to par."

(╥﹏╥)

I took it as a yes. Jenny was so hard to please sometimes. This was good enough O_O.

Next...I spoke to Bob.

I guess deep down on the inside, I felt bad for not properly telling him in person. He guessed that I liked Lin on one go and was perfectly fine with it.

Lin actually felt bad too.

So he apologized to Bob and everything.

And Bob was still perfectly fine. He said he had known since June and didn't want to bring up breaking up himself so he waited for me to do it instead.

(¬_¬)

Bob left saying, "I'm going to put this in my book of "Bob's hardest reads :D".

Not gonna lie.

I was pissed O_O.

But you know, it all worked out at the end. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Lin and I were happy with it, the great and almighty Jenny (sorta) approved, so it was all good! I even told Jerry the news and he was happy for us too!

But the question remained...

Did I want to date someone?

I wasn't sure. Dating Bob was a nightmare. We didn't even talk to each other that much by the time we actually started dating. I hated myself for everything that happened over the course of that year...it was truly a nightmare.

"But Lin isn't Bob, is he?"

I think Allie raised that point. Or maybe it was my other friend Salad. I asked them a lot of questions. Whoever raised the point was smart. Thanks guys :D.

So I decided to talk to Lin about it.

At first, he sounded like he didn't want us to date. He said that it would be tricky to balance a relationship with academic expectations and who knew how our parents would react? Sure, we could keep it a secret, but hanging out would be a lot harder.

Then Allie pointed out that he might've just said that because I was hesitant.

"Didn't you tell him you were unsure and wanted stability?" she asked.

"Well yes, but I asked him for his honest opinion," I replied in defense. "Unless he only said because I didn't seem willing..."

Thinking over things that night was painful. My past relationship had made me miserable and I wanted nothing but to get out of it, but what if this was different? What if this was better?

As I continued hesitating, I asked Lin again, this time for his actual honest opinion.

Again, I don't 100% remember the entire conversation, but he said one thing that I remember super clearly even now as I sit on my toilet writing this =^=

"If you're thinking I'll  leave you because you don't wanna have a relationship, you're wrong. It's fine. I'm already happy you spend time to deal with one-sided conversations. Seriously."

T-T

Soooo in the end we decided to start dating! Yay!(?)

Then for SOME reason, maybe because Benjamin sat in front of me during English and was one of the only mutual friends Lin and I had at the time, we decided to tell him first.

More like I peer pressured Lin to agree to let me tell him because I was bored and wanted to see a reaction.

It went something like this:

Benjamin:
Holy sh******t!!
*more cursing*
Wait. Oh dang, it kinda makes sense!

One good thing I got out of it: learning about his second grade relationship mishap that went downhill pretty fast. Poor guy :c.

After that, we kind of released the information to friends one at a time.

There was Alex, who straight up said, "I KNEW IT" and went to interrogate Lin, and soon the interrogation morphed into abuse which still remains today. There was also the people who always asked but we never confirmed until maybe winter break.

Fun times.

Haha...