Did I Mention I Was A Dumbass?

sigh

I just...

I want a mommy

Or a daddy

Or a caregiver

Hell, I'd settle for someone who would be like an older brother/sister/sibling or whatever the heck they want

I want someone to make sure I'm taking care of myself and being a good boy and going to bed at a reasonable time

I don't care if it's someone irl or long distance

I don't care if it's platonic or romantic (tho I'd only do romantic irl)

I just want someone to take care of me and remind me that everything is gonna be okay

I want to cry to someone because crying alone is getting tiring

I want to be calmed down from my panic attacks by something other than a musical or a youtube video

I want to talk about my favorite Disney character

I want to be pastel without my whole stupid reputation being ruined

I want to smile without someone saying "wow I didn't know DJ could smile" or something equally bitchy

I want someone who can tolerate me when I'm big and little and middle

I want...to be happy...and I don't want to feel alone anymore

I have friends, and don't get me wrong, they're amazing

But one doesn't even know I'm little and the other has never been around me when little (honestly I'm scared for them to be)

And I'm not asking for you to take the role on, this is just a stupid venty post

I am gonna tag my friend, but again you don't have to and I don't expect you to. I don't even think I want you to although I mean I wouldnt reject it lol. MelLikesToWriteOwo

This is just a stupid vent post sorry...