my precious bean

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" please , don't break my heart
don't tear me apart "

name
sabrina elara matteo

age (24)
24

gender
female

sexuality
bisexual

face claim
diana silvers

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personality

sabrina is a free soul, a wild card, she's a dreamer at heart nonetheless with a hunger for what the world can offer her. she's spritely, adventurous and energetic with a tendency to be quite the life of the party once she's gotten some alcohol in her system- oops?
despite her soft outlook on life and the fact that she seems to light up a room with that smile of hers she's a fighter. and fiercely loyal and overprotective over those close to her, and if you hurt someone she loves it's probably time you got your butt out of there and moved to Canada because she will hunt your sorry a$s down.
she's stubborn and curious almost to the point of recklessness with a tendency to find herself in tough situations. she's innocent and almost angelic to the point that many just want to take her under their wings and keep her away from the cruel grasp of the rest of the world. she had an awful habit of tending to put others wants and needs before her own.
she can be a complete weirdo at times, with a tendency to banter and lean towards a more playful and slightly childish side of herself. she's as unpredictable as they come, her intelligence and creative nature simply spurring her on furthermore.
the barrier between her thoughts and her words is often dissolved, as she just says whatever comes to mind without spending too much thought on things. however ,, similarly she can overthink the smallest of actions. spontaneous actions and words alike are very much her thing. she can be rather clumsy at times, certainly not the most elegant of people and furthermore can be frankly rather adorable even when she's not trying.

sabrina cannot flirt for her life, don't get me wrong she's tried and definitely isn't keen on remembering her failures. someone needs to help this bean in regards to romantic side of life ; )

just beware that she is a little broken. we're all a little broken, and yet Sabrina is just that bit more fractured. it'll take her a while to open up to you, and yet once she does you won't regret it
likes
making others smile
cuddling
hugs ( her hugs feel like warm sunshine )
binge watching rom coms
marvel movies
old black and white French films
marvel > dc
photography
tyre swings
being outdoors
summer and spring days
beanies
oversized sweaters
red skittles
puns
being able to be herself
flowers
the sound of rain against her window
dancing in the rain
gumboots
music
her puppy, Drax ( the destroyer of her socks , if u get the reference ur amazing )

dislikes
being pushed around
skinny-shaming
fat-shaming
virgin-shaming
slut-shaming
body-shaming
honestly, just how screwed up society is if we are being honest here
overly rich foods
overly sour foods
mustard, it's a terrible condiment

hobbies
photography ,, singing ,, making mixtapes ( especially for those she cares for )) ,, putting photos of moments she doesn't want to forget up on her wall ,, eating too much cheesecake 

backstory

sabrina only ever had one relationship, and it was a complicated one to say the least.  he was amazing at first; she fell for his kind words and soft touches, the way he made her feel worthwhile. and yet, slowly over time that facade of his broke down. he became possessive, overly so. he didn't allow her to leave the house without him, hang out with friends he did not approve of, that kind of thing.

he was mentally abusive towards her, compromised her mental health and made her feel undeserving of his love and attention. he would constantly tear her down to the point of breaking her, making her significantly more mentally scarred. she managed to break it off from him and filed a restraining order. yet there's no doubt that since then she hasn't believed herself worthy or trusting of love.


sabrina grew up in a family home of three; her mother, herself and her older brother. despite the challenges they may have faced with a lesser income meaning a smaller house, a leaking tap, a broken clothesline, doors which squeaked when they closed, a front gate which only opened halfway and a dripping roof they didn't mind. they were happy, even if it meant Sabrina was juggling three jobs in order to try and help keep the roof over their head.

even through all of their challenges, they always managed to pull through even if on some occasions it was indeed only by the skin of their teeth.

however, the death of her brother really seemed to break her - and especially her mother. they were driving along a bridge on the way home after her brother was picking her up from her singing lessons, they were chatting and laughing and everything seemed just perfect. until a truck collided with the side of their car, crushing them into the side of the bridge and instantly killing her brother. the funeral was held three days later.

Sabrina has always blamed herself for his death. and never took another singing lesson since. she never sings in public really anymore, only on her own at home usually in the shower or when she is cleaning around the house.

why they joined 'love at first sight'
she's a bit of a hopeless romantic. you can blame the books she grew up reading and her romance and romance-comedy films she so adores. even though she does not believe that she is deserving of love, she still holds out a bit of hope that maybe- just maybe, there's someone out there who loves her for who she is, doesn't want her to change to their desires and honestly just someone that she can cuddle up with in front of the fireplace and read her books to and make mixtapes for

birthday
July 1st

zodiac sign
cancer

family
mother - alive , anne
father - status unknown
brother - deceased, jonothan

who they want to go for
she truthfully thinks that they are all beautiful, however she is most attracted to ronan. something about his scruffy hair and cute smile seems to have captured this cinnamon rolls attention. probably because he reminds her a bit of a puppy dog; loyal, devoted, adorable . . .

other
x she had dark purple stretch marks on her inner thighs which she is extremely self conscious about
x she only ever eats the red skittles, it's weird but it's just kind of her thing
x she has a captain America matching bra and panties set and y'all are jealous
x she has night terrors on occasion
x her iron levels are extremely low and she was diagnosed with anaemia several months ago. meaning she can get quite feint at points, has to have her vitamin D and iron tablets. it also means she bruises very easily

♥︎

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