Nothing like before

"Are u happy?"

Heros POV

Anna texted me the details of Jo's arrival and now I am getting dressed to make my way towards the airport to pick up Jo. I have absolutely no idea how she will react, she sent me a message earlier in which she asked if we could talk soon. I thought it would be the best and most inconspicuous not to answer her. I really want to surprise her and I just hope she will be, at least a little bit, happy to see me because I am sure excited to see her.
The last time we saw was a week ago but for me it feels like it's been a month or even more, that's how much I love her and want her to be with me. Looking back I wish I could kick myself in the ass for not telling Jo what I really feel for her ans hurting her the way I did, I never meant to make her feel bad, more like the opposite, I wanted her to feel like the Queen that she is. I remember the first time I realised I felt something for Jo when we first shot "After", it was during our one week rehearsal period.

"Hero come on, we need to get this scene done. I know it is only the preparation but what if we won't get it perfect during the real shoot?!"
That is Jo I think, always focused on work, always giving 110% of herself for the job,no matter what it takes. And that is what lead us to be here, sitting in her hotel room at midnight rehearsing our lines for the scene at the party where Hardin finds Tessa in his room. I'm a bit nervous because we are supposed to kiss in that scene for the first time as well and as good as I know Jo she will want to rehearse that as well. I wouldn't be so nervous if Jo wouldn't be so attractive. I've met a few women before but they've been nothing compared to Jo, she is really attractive and has a great character, everything about her screams perfection.
"Ok, I promise I'll get it this time" I try to focus and be in my Hardin-Mode so we can get this scene done.
I come closer to Jo and to her ear "Are we still playing ? Because I think you owe me a dare" I say as Hardin and look into Jo's beautiful eyes, her pupils are delighted and the colour of her eyes seem to shine even brighter. I don't know anymore if we are acting or not, everything feels so real. Our faces are slowly coming closer to each other and then it happens, we kiss. I wasn't really sure if Jo would want to rehearse the kiss as well as the rest but she obviously does. Her lips are soft and warm, I've never kissed anyone like Jo before, it feels amazing. We stop kissing and look at each other. I am sure there is as much sexual tension in my eyes than there is in hers. I look into her eyes for a bit longer and then it hits me. I like her, like really like her. Ever since the first time I met her I had this feeling I've never had before and now I realise what it is. I have a crush on Jo. I promised myself to never fall for a co-star but with Jo it's different, it feels like more. I don't really know how to handle the situation "That was amazing Jo! I mean no-not the kiss, I mean that was amazing too but you're acting was great. Really!" Wow, great Hero. You couldn't have said anything more stupid. She just simply laughs "It's alright Hero, I know what you're trying to say. Thank you" I see that she blushes a little "You were great too! Honestly, I don't think that anyone could Play Hardin better than you do. And I also wouldn't want anyone else to play him.." she adds with a smile. Is she flirting with me ? "This is based on reciprocity.." I let out a yawn and so does Jo. I smile at her "I think it would be the best if we would go to sleep now. It's already late." She looks at me with her tired and beautiful face. "You're right. Thank you for keeping up with me during rehearsal. Sleep well" I can't stop smiling at her "It was an honour for me. Good night Jo, don't stay up too late" I tell her and make my way out of her room when she calls my name once again "Hero.." I turn around to look at her "Yes Jo..?" She seems to fumble a little bit but in the end she only says "Goodnight" with a smile on her face. I smile at her one last time and then leave. I think she might wanted to say something else but I'll never know. All I know is that I am so damn attracted to her and I need to find out if she is too.

That was one of the most amazing nights in my life. I've never felt that way with anyone else, only Jo can trigger such feelings in me. I put my t-shirt on the second my sister Mercy comes in „Hey Hero, what are you up to ?" she throws herself onto my bed. I've always been close to my sister and maybe she can give me some advices for how to tell Jo what I feel. "I'm on my way to the airport to pick up Josephine" her eyes get big and she stares at me "The Josephine as in your co-star Josephine ?! Are u kidding me ?" She is a little drama queen, always been and will always be. "Yeah Mercy, it's Jo. Look she doesn't know I am going to pick her up. There have been some certain circumstances that I have to make up now" I tell her everything that happened between me and Jo and how I've always been feeling about her and all that stuff. Once I'm finished my sister just looks at me "I never thought you'd be that much of an hopeless romantic person but wow, you really love her don't you?" I know that there is only one true answer "I do. I definitely do. I didn't want to admit it to myself because I thought we could never work out but now I've realised that I can't live without her." Mercy gets up and gives me a hug "You'll get it! I know you will. From what I've seen the two of you are deeply in love with each other. She will forgive you and understands why you told her you couldn't be together!" That's what I love most about my sister, she always finds the right words and knows how to make me feel better "Thank you M. I need to leave now, I don't want to be too late. See you later, wish me luck". With that I make myself on my way to Jo.

Once I arrived at the airport I make myself on my way to her gate so I can pick her up. I can see already even though im to metres away. I would always directly find her. I make my way towards her and now she sees me as well. Her face looks a bit shocked and confused once I stand in front of her she doesn't say anything besides my name. "Hey Jo ho-" I touch my cheek which Jo just slapped and look at her "Ok I deserved that." She still looks at me with a shocked face " What are you doing here ? Where is Anna?" Now I am confused "What d'you mean ? Why would Anna be here ?" She sighs "I knew it was a trick. Anna told me that she would be in London and she would pick me up and spend time with me." Oh no, why did Anna do this ? She shouldn't have told Jo that she would be here, of course she is mad. "Jo look, I called Anna because I wanted to talk to you, she told me that you would be here this weekend and I thought that would be my chance" I hope she will talk to me, I want to tell her how much I love her, how much I need her and what an idiot I have been for letting her go. "I cant believe she did that-" Jo sounds furious "I told her that I didn't want to see you!" Wow, that hurts. I know she's been mad at me but I wasn't expecting it to be so bad. "Jo there are a lot of things I need to tell you. D'you think it would be possible that we could do that?" She looks straight into my eyes for the first time since I saw her and I can see how hurt and mad she is "I don't think there is anything we need to talk about Hero.." "Really? Then why did you ask me if we could talk sometime soon ?" Now I am mad at her too, I get that I fucked up and stuff but I want to fix it. She seems to think about what I just said "Ok fine. We'll talk. But I want to go to my hotel first and we can talk there" I agree with it and we make our way to her hotel. I'm terribly nervous about what to say to her so she will understand me and give me a second chance. We arrive at her hotel and get her key card. The stupid male receptionist was flirting with Jo the entire time and she didn't do anything against it. Just like she wants me to suffer. Once in her room she falls onto her bed "Are you tired ?" is all I ask her, I want to do a little bit of small talk before its getting deep. She doesn't open her eyes while answering "A little bit. I slept most of my flight but still." She doesn't seem to be too interested in small talk so I try to leave it there and talk to her about the serious things. "Jo..I want to apologise" now she opens her eyes and sits up "Apologise for what ? Being a dick ? Using me only for sexual satisfaction ?!" She actually screams at me but what shocks me even more is what she just said "What did you say? Are you crazy? How can you think I would have only used you?!" I can't believe she really thinks so, she must be joking, bad joking. "Jo you know me, I would never do something like this to you, I-i" I can't bring the words over my lips, that has always been the issue. "Because I had real feelings for you! It was not only sex for me or fun. It was much more. But you- you ran away the second it started to be a bit more serious, so don't tell me you didn't use me!" She's literally mad to think that but on the other hand I can't be really mad at her because if I would be her I would have thought the same. "Josephine. I didn't use you, not one second, I promise!" She doesn't believe me "Hero, how can you promise something like that when it is so obvious ?" I don't know what to tell her that could convince her so I just try the truth "Because I love you Josephine, that's why! I freaking love you, so much that it already hurts ok ?! That's why I can promise you that I didn't use you!" That took me a lot and her reaction surprises me even more because I thought it was so obvious "Y-you do wha-what?"