Nothing like before

"I love you"

Jo's POV

"Because I love you Josephine, that's why! I freaking love you, so much that it already hurts ok ?! That's why I can promise you that I didn't use you!" I can't believe the words he's saying. "Y-you do wha-what?" is everything that's coming out of my mouth. He looks directly into my eyes "I love you. And not since yesterday or last week, ever since filming "After" I loved you. I just hadn't got the guts to tell you because I was too afraid that you would maybe reject me. I know it sounds like a stupid excuse but you are so not in my league but far beyond. You have style and class and I-I am just a child that falls in love with someone who deserves someone way better.." There is so much that I want to say but I don't know where to start "Hero, why haven't you told me that earlier ? No matter how afraid you were. Towards the end I just thought you were having fun with me and nothing more! You were the only one I ever wanted!" I sigh in frustration. He stops walking up and down and looks at me again "I was the only one ? So you don't anymore?" He sounds afraid to hear my response and I don't really know how to answer him "I-I don't know" I sit down on my bed again thinking on what to do. I love Hero, I know that I do but he hurt me so much with everything that happened in the past. I know he didn't wanted do and I also know I hadn't had the guts either to tell him 'bout my feelings but still. Hero is still standing awkwardly in the middle of my room, he is clearly nervous and I am sure he expected a different reaction from me where I probably ran towards him and kissed and hugged him. And I wish I would do that but I think before we should still talk about us, I look at him "Come here and sit down" I command him over. He follows my direction and sits down next to me. The first time in months I can see all of his emotions in his eyes. "I really wish you would have told me earlier" is all I say to him. "I know I've messed up but I want to fix it Jo, I swear I want to make it all good to you. I just need one chance and I will show you how serious I am about us!" My heart starts to melt when he is talking about us. Him and Me. I am still insecure but I think Hero has the right to know that he is not the only one who is completely insecure about all of this. "I know I had feelings for you the first time we were at that dinner when we first met. I hadn't had the guts to tell you either. I don't think I'm so mad at you for not telling me, what I'm mad about is the fact that when you had the one time opportunity to tell me in the right moment you lied to me and then just quickly left. It's like you ran away from me- Don't say anything I'm not done yet" I tell him when he tries to cut me off to explain himself, "You are not the only one who's insecure about all of this, I know how your life has been before. You've never been in a relationship, only a few flirts here and there nothing binding, nothing serious. I just thought that this was the reason why you don't want a relationship, because you didn't wanted to give that up, your freedom. He fumbles a little bit but ends up with "That has never been the reason. I don't care about "freedom" or only sex, not since I've met you. You showed me that there is so much more. I was always too insecure because I thought you would find someone better than me but I don't care about these thoughts anymore because the last week I realised that I can't live like that. I need you in my life Jo, please tell me I didn't destroy everything?!" That mist have taken him a good portion of self confidence to tell me, I know it has never been too easy for Hero to talk about his feelings and if I'm honest I can't be mad at him anymore, not when he's sitting here on my bed telling me all these things I always wanted him to tell me . "You didn't. I always wished to hear these words from you if I am honest" I blush a little because it is hard for me to admit that. He rises his hand and puts it against my cheek "I always wanted to tell you" I smile at him once more "Well now you did!" and before he can answer me I start kissing him, at first he is a little bit shy and cautious but only for a few seconds until he starts  kissing me back as passionate as I did before. We lay back on the bed Hero on top of me, he whispers "I missed you so much" My heart skips a beat "I missed you too". I start taking off his shirt first and then the takes of mine.

He kisses me from the neck to my stomach down to the point where the button of my jeans is.  He looks at me and silently asks for permission.  I look at him and nod.  He opens my pants and pulls them off along with my panties.  At first I often felt uncomfortable being so exposed to him but now I'm so used to it that I do not mind anymore.  He slips between my spread thighs and begins to kiss my sensitive spot and takes a short time later his tongue.  It feels so unbelievable that I can not stifle a groan "Hero ..".  He comes out between my thighs and looks at me "What?".  He has done enough for me for now, now it's my turn. I open his pants and take off her and his boxer shorts. His penis is stiff and ready for me. I go to my knees before him and take him in the mouth. I go slowly up and down and take him completely in me which is not so easy because his penis is quite large. I see how much Hero enjoys it and he can not stop moaning "Jo, that feels so good".  I keep going a little further but eventually Hero pulls me up to his side and kisses me, slowly letting a finger slide into me and starts to move.  Now it's impossible for me to hold back my groan.  After a while he takes a second finger and gets me to come.  I decide now to take the lead so that I sit on top of him and ride him. I know how much he loves that and his face and moan confirm that again "God Jo..fuck it's so good I'm already so close.." That's what I like to hear, I always loved having this effect on him "Let's come together" is all I say to him and ride a bit more until we both come. We lay together in bed now, my head on his chest drawing small circles. He strokes my arm in the meantime and I can hear his breath softly.  There is nothing more reassuring for me. I still don't know what we really are, a couple ? Still friends with benefits? "Hero..?" He stops stroking my arm "Yeah my love ?" "What are we now ? A couple ? Like for real ?" He seems to think about it but nearly instantly answers "If you want to yes,I don't want to waste more time without you being mine. I was serious Jo. I love you!" He always manages to make me speechless with the right words. "Ok then we will be! But I think it would be best if we still keep it for us, you know due to work and stuff" He agrees "Yeah you're right but we should tell Anna, without her we wouldn't be here, together." "You're right, we should call her tomorrow."

He smiles at me once more "What d'you think about getting a little bit more rest and then I will show you the city? You will probably won't get a better tour guide than me" he says with a wink. I laugh at that "Yeah you're right I think, besides, I can end up in bed again with my own tour guide" I add now with a wink. He's all serious again when he tells me that he loves me and I am all serious as well when I tell him "I love you too Hero".