Nothing like before

We belong

22.07.2020~London 

Hero's POV

Today is an exciting day. The After We Collided poster will be published and I have my first insta live stream on Ferragamo. I'm a little bit nervous to be honest because I've never done an insta live before, I mean sure I was into some of my friends lives but never have I done one myself. There's also the fact that I'm afraid the fans will go crazy again and ask multiple questions about my private life and when I say private life I mean my love life. I don't want to be reading questions about me and Josephine and if we are a couple. It is difficult enough for me so I don't want to talk about it on social media. 

I know she is currently in L.A, maybe at Anna's place or something. Or maybe she is with someone.. no Hero, don't go there. 

The relationship between me and Jo is quite complicated ever since we met, whenever we are together, no matter if it is for the movie or promo stuff or if I'm in L.A for work, we are together enjoying the time we have. I know I feel strongly for her, more than I have ever felt for someone but it somehow doesn't seem to work out for us. 

I know she likes me too, I mean why else should we spend so much time together when we can but I just have the feeling that neither of us want to admit. I have never been in a relationship before, at least not a real one but with Josephine it is different. I even thought about her meeting my parents, like for real. She saw my mum and my sister a few times on face time when we where together but it's not the same. I would love for them to meet her as my girlfriend or at least someone who could be my girlfriend. She would perfectly fit into our lives and I know she would be best friends with Mercy.

One day we will get there. I'm sure we will, the connection that we have is undeniable and I know Jo knows that as well. There is also a lot of pressure on us because if we would be together it could affect our work and I know Jo would never forgive herself if we could cause trouble in our carriers. 

I have been enough in my thoughts when I realise that it is time for me to start the livestream. I'll be doing it with Holly another model from Ferragamo and we are just going to talk about the new campaign and then some fan questions. 

I've started the live stream but we had some trouble adding Holly into it but after some time we got there in the end and we were talking about Ferragamo and a little bit about after when Holly suddenly asks me what the story behind my name is. I tell her that there is really no story, just that my parents seem to like unusual names but I came to terms with it and now I can't really imagine being called something more usual and that it is a good way to start some small talk. The funny thing is that this is also how Jo and I came to small talk. 

When we first met in that hotel lobby I introduced myself to her. 

"Hi , you must be Josephine right? I'm Hero"

"Yeah that's me, hi, sorry what's your name again?"

"It's Hero" She can't hold back a chuckle. Nothing unusual whenever I tell someone new my name.

"Sorry, I shouldn't be laughing it's just, are you serious?" Of course she would ask me that. 

"Don't worry it's fine. You're not the first person that reacts like that but yes it is true. My name is Hero" The smile she gives me is breathtaking. 

"Well, I guess you really are the hero of the movie then" I have to laugh despite her joke being really low. 

From this moment back then I fell for her more and more everyday, even though she still mocks me every now and then either because of my accent or because of my name. But that doesn't matter because I know she always means it playfully. 

The live just ended and I am about to head home when my phone vibrates and I see a message I wouldn't have expected in a million years. 

*I saw your insta live, you look great and did super well, I'm proud of you. I waited until it was over before I decided to post the poster. I miss you Hero*

Josephine's POV

Hero's live stream on Ferragamo just started and I decided to give it a watch, he looks unbelievable handsome in this blue jacket and also his hair which is a bit longer than usual. They just try to add this girl Holly that is doing the live with him. She is really beautiful I have to say, Hero probably thinks the same I'm sure. I'm probably rambling my thoughts again I know that Hero feels strongly for me and I feel the same it just doesn't seem to workout for us relationship wise. 

They are really towards the end when Holly asks him how his parents came up with his name and if there is a story behind it. His answer makes me chuckle because I sure know there is no real story behind it but it his name is what lead us to talk a lot and get to know each other. I wonder if he remembers that day just as much as I do. From that day on I started to fell for him and I'm sure he knows that. 

Hero's livestream was already an exciting event today, but now the movie poster of After We Collided is still being released. Anna and I thought that it made the most sense to release it after the livestream, otherwise the fans would have all freaked out.In contrast to my otherwise chaste way of posting on Instagram, I decide to post the poster in my story. I also feel like I have to write Hero. I miss him so much, it has never been so bad.

*I saw your insta live, you look great and did super well, I'm proud of you. I waited until it was over before I decided to post the poster. I miss you Hero*

Maybe he won't write me back at all. Maybe he's fed up with me and my indecisiveness and doesn't want me anymore. On the other hand, I can't really imagine that, because whenever we are together, nothing can separate us. Hero has told me many times that he has strong feelings for me but from my side he gets little confirmation I have the feeling. I think my fear of being tied up and possibly being hurt is just too high. However, Hero just didn't deserve it. He is so honest and open to me so I should be the same. 

I am so lost in my thoughts that I don't even notice that Hero has already answered me.

*You have no idea how much I miss you. I wish I could just fly over to you and see you. Feel you*

My heart skips a beat. With a message he has this effect on me. I also wish he could just come here. I should call him, then we can talk better about everything between us.He answers after the second ring.

"Hello love.." His voice gives me butterflies. 

"Hero.." Is all I can get out. 

"I'm glad you texted me. I thought about you today." 

"Only today?" I tease him. 

"No not only today. Everyday. But today I thought a lot about you. Could have something to do with the poster you know.." He smirks, probably thinking about shooting that picture and the scene. 

"I thought about you too. Hero, I have to tell you something.." You can do it Josephine. "Hero I-"

"I love you Josephine." Wait what? What did he just say? "It's out now. I love you and I don't want to waste time fooling around and not making things official with you. We belong to each other and I'm sure you know that as well. So yeah..I love you and if you don't feel the same way for me then this is now really-" 

"I love you too Hero..."  I interrupt him, he is in loss for words and so am I. Whatever that means for us now.