Broken Wings || banginho {✅}

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-Minho's POV-

I looked at Jisung... he looked so unhealthy... why didn't I never recognised this?... "Jisung..." I didn't know what to say... I was in shock... seeing him like that... it hurts so badly... "Minho I'm so sorry... I... I wanted to tell you but I was just afraid..." Tears steamed down his face. "What's wrong with Jisung?" Hyunjin asked. "Uhm... don't be afraid Mr. but Jisung has a disease called Utopia" the nurse said. What the hell is that? Hyunjin looked at Jisung and started to cry... "May I ask, what is Utopia?"

"Well, it's a rare disease. His health and his mental health isn't okay... it's like depression that never goes away, but then, ten times worser. It feels like the death is chasing you and everything hurts. His health isn't stable. He can't change anything. The only thing he can do is taking medication." When she said this, I looked at jisung and then looked at the nurse. "C-Can He... die?" "Yes he can!" Hyunjin yelled and wiped his tears away but they still came out of his eyes. If Jisung dies... I don't know what to do without Jisung... he means a lot to me... "Minho I am so so sorry. I wanted to tell you but I was afraid." He said and looked down. "I broke you... I am so sorry."

"You didn't had to be scared Jisung. You know you don't have to be afraid if you want to tell me something." "Minho..." He bit his lip and tears came out of his eyes. I was about to hug him but Hyunjin hugged him. "Pl-Please forgive me" He said. "Please I'm so sorry Hyunjin." "For what?" He didn't reply on that. He took a deep breath. "Do you know where his parents are?" I nodded. "I have their phone number. Do I need to call them?" I asked and she nodded. "Okay." I grabbed my phone and then called Jisung's mom. "Hey Minho!" "Hey Miss Kim. Can you come to the hospital? Jisung is here." "I'll come as fast as I can. Thank you so much Minho" and then she hung up.

After 10 minutes his mothers came. Yes his mothers. "Jisung baby" Solar immediately hugged Jisung. "Are you Okay? What happened?" "Well... his health is getting worser. We are trying our best to keep his health stable as much as we can." Solar bit in her lip. Tears steamed down out of her eyes. "Mom don't worry. I'll be okay. You know that I am a strong boy" he smiled and his another mom smiled too. She walked to Jisung and grabbed his hand. "Jisung, we know that you're strong boy. We're just worried... do you understand that sweetie?" Moonbyul said and hoped that Jisung would understand Solar and her. "But mom, don't worry that much. I know you have more thoughts in your head..." "but Jisung you are us most important person in our life's. You don't wanna know how much we love you are care about you."

Jisung just looked at the mothers and then looked down. "Miss Solar, Miss Moonbyul and Boys, I'll talk to my co-workers. I'll be right back." The nurse said and then left. Jisung noticed how sad we looked... I mean... I don't know what to do... this is so weird... I didn't even know about this... he was just wearing a mask... and it made me so sad to know that... because I thought he was happy. But he wasn't at all... only because of his stupid disease... "Minho can we talk for a moment?" Hyunjin asked and I nodded. "Privately?" "Yeah sure" I said and then walked into the bathroom. "Tell me what's wrong Hyunjin." He took a deep breath. "Well... Uhm... I wanna tell that I am in love with Jisung... But I know who had the same disease as him... my dad had it... he died on my 12th birthday... only because of this disease... I am afraid that we are going to lose Jisung too because of this." He said and tears came out of his eyes. "Hey I totally understand you Hyunjin. I am afraid to lose Jisung too... but we need to believe in him. He is a strong boy and we all know that." Hyunjin nodded.

"And I already noticed that you love jisung more than just friends. I think Jisung is still confused about his sexuality and that is totally normal. And I think he'll know that he's in love with you too... but I think he needs some time..." he smiled. "Well... Minho, thank you for being my friend" "hey, you know I'm always here for you."

"Well, let's go back." I said and he nodded. We walked out of the bathroom and looked at Jisung. At the same moment the nurse came back. "We have some news. Jisung needs to stay here for a few weeks because of his health issues." The nurse said but Jisung immediately shook his head. "But what about Minho? He can't go to school all alone!" "Jisung your health is more important for me than school." I said but he didn't agree with me. "No! What if something bad would happen?! I don't wanna stay here!" "Jisung! Your health is important too! Don't fucking forget about yourself!" I said angrily and Jisung looked at me. "I don't forget about myself LEE MINHO!"

"I DON'T-" "Guys don't yell, we are in a hospital! And jisung you are staying, even if you don't want to!" Solar strictly said. Jisung looked down. "But-" "no more buts Han Hyunsuck Jisung!" "Yah! Don't call me by my full name!" He frowned. "And I am serious mom!" "Well! I'm serious too my dear." "Yes Jisung listen to your mom" Moonbyul said.

"Well... I'll miss you MinMin and Jinnie. Give me a hug you bitches" Well, he has mood swings like... omg... me and Hyunjin walked to Jisung and then hugged him. "Take care of yourself when I'm not with you. And! I will tell Chan Hyung that he needs to take care of you! And for you Hwang Hyunjin." Jisung turned red. "I am going to be okay! I know you guys believe in me! But Hyunjin, you better take care of yourself too. Otherwise I'll come and fucking take care of you." "We promise we'll take care of ourselves." I said...

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Bish Solar is my mommy too;) Hyunsuck- it just popped in my mind- like Hyunjin Su- I'll stop LMAO

Well. I am a multi Stan so.... I wanna see my multi's too! Tell me who your bias group is and why.

Well for me, Stray Kids is my bias group because they made me feel alive, I mean, I wanted to die so badly. But when I discovered Stray Kids, I don't know but I felt a strong connection with them.  They make me feel alive. Like my life is hard because not only my parents, but school, outside life, my heartbroken lesbian heart. Everything does hurt, but I don't wanna give up because of this. I wanna be a dancer but my parents don't support me. And I feel like Stray Kids is my best friend that's always beside me and I know they believe in me. Not only in me, but they believe in us.

My dad is homophobic as hell... my sister isn't. My mom is questionable. She is but also isn't. But yeh... it's really hard for me to open up my sexuality for people because just the pressure of the feeling that no one loves me because of my sexuality. And the pressure of school... the pressure of my mind... it's heavy. But I will not give up because I need to chase my dream.

And my parents and my sister fight a lot. Like every day once. I just lock myself up in my room and then play some stray kids music because it makes me comfortable and calm. I feel like they can hear me... I feel like they support me... I feel like they're my best friend. They are our best friend. They are my happiness that I didn't felt like in years. (Gosh I'm tearing up) like my dream is literally thank Stray Kids And Tell Why I love them so much but I know it'll never happen:( but I support them and that means a lot for them.

And if they're happy, I'm happy too. Like they mean a lot to me and they aren't just boys that sing, rap and dance. They mean the world for me... I'll stop because I sound like an emo rbjwkda.

(I know skz will never read this Hfjwkxm but I just wanna write it down, sorry if it was too long)

And I wanna tell you guys, my dm's are always open. If you're struggling I'm always here for you guys:)