Bucket List ↬ X.DJ

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xiaojun's.

yahui texted me to meet her at the park.

my heart still aches at the thought of her. losing her in particular.

i don't know how to face her.

i'll stay strong. i have to. she needs someone to lean on now more than ever.

i get a sweater and some other things then made my way to our meeting place.

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i see her seated on one of the benches smiling as she was watching the kids playing and running around.

i bet she never experienced it because of her condition.

i slowly took the place next to her.

we remained silent until she decided to speak up, "i wish i could be happy as those kids."

i don't know what to say. i can't blurt out that i know about her heart.

she faced me and i see the tears slowly forming in her eyes.

i have to pretend like i know nothing.

"what's wrong, yahui?" i asked as i put an arm around her in an attempt to at least comfort her.

"its nothing" she laughed bitterly "i guess its just cute how these children are running around and enjoying their time. carefree of problems... but soon they'll see how life is which is... just sad."

i tried to reach out to wipe her tears but she beats me to it.

silence lingered once more.

i guess we are both looking at the same scene since we were both smiling.

a little girl got pushed by one of those kids running around the park and one of the boys playing saw her and decided to help her.

"hey xiaojun" yahui called out without looking, eyes still on the children "do you think anyone would like me? you know... romantically?"

"i'm 100% positive there would be a lot of admirers but they better not hurt you."

she laughed a little and fixed her seating position, now looking at the trees, "well, in the case i still get the chance to meet them."

"what makes you say you wouldn't meet an admirer?" when i'm just right here.

"oh, nothing..."

silence fell again as the sky was slowly changing its color and the young ones start to go home.

i was surprised when she gasped and suddenly looked at me.

what's running in this girl's mind??

"i have an idea, xiaojun!" she seems excited?

she stood up and pointed at me then dragged my arm to pull me up.

"will you come with me?"

i arch my eyebrow in confusion, "where? its getting late already, yahui."

"we don't have to do it now!"

"then what are you thinking of?"

"let's make a bucket list!"