When Love Conquers Two

Chapter 36

Previously in When Love Conquers Two

Sarah, Harry, Louis, and Niall talk about Ray marrying Alvin. The three boys decide to make a video on Sarah's channel about the whole situation to see if the fans can knock some sense into Ray. The boys find out that Sarah is starving herself and cutting again. Harry pushes Sarah to tell them why, but he pushes too far and she goes blows up. He storms out pissed off and upset. Sarah goes after him, but he ignores her. She yells at him and calls him an ass and storms into her room. 

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I can feel the anger radiating off me. I pace back and forth. How fucking dare he? He brings up me cutting when he knows damn well I don't like talking about it then he has the fucking audacity to storm out of the room without even helping me? I can't fucking believe him. A knock on the door interrupts my rant. "What?" I snap at whoever it is. "It's me, chill," Louis says closing the door behind him. "What, Niall didn't want to deal with me?" I say. "No, I had him go deal with Harry. You're in a mood where you'll fight anyone. And I don't want you and Niall to get into a big fight," he says. "Well, why don't you go be with your boyfriend? He sure as hell wouldn't want you here with me right now," I snap. "I don't care if he approves or not. We need to talk everything out," he says. I cross my arms, "why don't we start with you not telling me that Ray told you to stop talking to me." He sighs, "I didn't want to tell you. But when Ray said she's marrying Alvin, I had to tell you." "On fucking camera!" I yell. I take a deep breathe sitting down on my bed. I look down at my hands, "this is the fifth time someone's said they don't want us together." "Yea, and? I don't care how many people I lose. I'm not losing you," he says. "I'm not worth it, Lou," I say looking up at him. He sits down next to me and puts his arm around me, me leaning into his side. "You are worth it. You're my best friend, my sister. I'm not going to abandon you just because someone doesn't understand why we're so close. At this point, we've been through too much together to leave each other," Louis says. "But why can't other people see that? I don't want to have to hide us being best friends just cause people hate us being so close or the accusations of us cheating on Niall and Harry. I just want to do whatever I want with my best friend," I say frustrated. "They're just jealous. Most people who hate on us don't have this kind of friendship. What we have is rare, and people hate on the lucky few who have it. But, who the fuck cares what the public thinks? You're my best friend and I'm never leaving you. No one can change my mind, not even Harry," he says. We stay like this until I'm not on the verge of ripping someone's head off anymore. "So, what exactly happened?" I ask sitting up. "When Ray told me to stop being friends with you?" Louis asks. I nod my head. "Well, it wasn't that much before I broke up with her actually," he says. "Really?" I ask shocked. "Yea, that was part of the reason why I wanted to break it off. I didn't want to be with someone who can't accept me being best friends with a girl," he says. I snort, "hypocrite." "It's different with Harry," he says. "Dumped a girl because she doesn't like you being best friends with a girl. Stays with a guy even though he hates you being best friends with a girl. Makes sense," I say. "Shut up," he chuckles. "Can I continue, Miss. Judgy," he says. "Go ahead, Mr. Hypocrite," I say. "I was facetiming her in my hotel room. I was telling her how you and Ashton started dating. She said thank god you were dating someone else. Now let me finish before you start yelling. I asked her why she said that. She said how she thought I was cheating on her with you and didn't like how close we were. She actually told me and I quote, 'if you keep being friends with that hoe, I'm going to beat your ass into next Tuesday'," Louis says.  I look at him like he's crazy. "Are you serious?" I say calmly. "Yea, I told her to kiss my arse 'cause I wasn't leaving you for anyone," he says. I grab his hand and drag him down the hallway toward my recording studio. "What's going on?" An Irish accent asks. "People are assholes," I say not stopping. What I assumes is Niall and Harry follow Louis and me into my studio. I set Louis down in front of the camera. I press record and sit next to him. "Hey, guys. I know I'm uploading twice in one day, but this has to be said. For this video, I'm joined by Louis Tomlinson, my best friend," I say emphasizing the best friend part. "Most of you know by now, but for those who don't. Louis and I grew up together, since I was two months old. That's eighteen years for those of you who can't count. Over the years, we've faced our obstacles that challenged our friendship, from abusive parents to bullies to even being kidnapped together. We never let this separate us. And we aren't starting any time soon.  I don't know how many girlfriends Louis has lost because of me being a girl and his best friend, even when I was nine fucking years old and he was fourteen. I have made it very clear with Niall that I'm not going to stop being best friends with Louis for a relationship, and he understands that completely. That's what you call a normal understanding human being. Now, there's some people out there who can't stand me being this close with the only person who I can trust after all of the abusive I've been through. This video is for those people. I don't care if you're the Queen of England, my biggest fan, or even my brother," I say glaring at Harry who's right behind the camera. "I have kept my mouth shut for the longest time. I've taken all of the heat and accusations and abuse from the public and my personal life to allow my best friend to become the huge celebrity he is today. I'm done keeping my mouth shut. If you don't support our friendship, leave both of our names out of your mouth. Do not threaten either of us to stop being friends with the other. Do not tell us you'll stop being in our lives if we don't stop being friends. Louis and I have left people before and we'd rather not have you in our lives than have someone toxic in it," I say. "Stop calling Sarah a slut, hoe, gold digger, fake, or whatever other insult you have. I am not afraid to fight someone if need be. I've been in fights before for her. And I know the rest of the lads will join in too," Louis says. "And you do not want to have them fight you. The boys are strong as hell alone, together they can take nearly anyone. Don't mess with us. We come as a pair, if you can't handle one you can't handle either of us. And if you can't handle us, then keep us out of your mouth and out of your life. I'm done seeing people attack us for just being best friends. I'm done with having toxic people in my life," I say. I get up and turn the camera off. 

"As I said earlier, I hope Ray burns in hell," I say furious. "I know, I do too. No one calls my best friend a hoe and gets away with it," Louis says pissed off. "Woah, who called Sarah what now?" Niall asks getting mad. "Ray called me a hoe," I say looking at him. "I can't fucking believe her. She's the one sleeping with whoever she bloody pleases," he says. "That's not even the worst part. She told Louis that she'll beat the shit out of him if he doesn't stop being friends with me," I say. "One of the reasons why I dumped her," Louis says. "She what?" Harry says. "Chill out, Haz. The fans will handle her," Louis says going over to him. "Don't tell me to chill. This bitch bloody threatened you," Harry says. "What are you going to do? Beat up a pregnant woman?" I say. "You did," Harry says. "That was different," I say. He snorts. "Ray threatened Louis, but he can handle himself. Ray fucked Alvin who has ruined my entire life who also had my baby sister held captive and she knew about it. She told Alvin so much shit that nearly tore Niall and me apart. Fucking tell me how that's not as bad as being threatened to get beaten up," I say going over to Harry. "You know what? I've had it. I get you've been through hell, but I've been through shit too. Not everything is always about you. I've done so much to help you and you can't even give me five minutes without making it about you," Harry says. I step back. What the fuck? "What the hell, Harry?" Niall says coming over to us. "Fuck you," I say to Harry. "Don't fucking say that to me," Harry says coming over to me. "You don't even know the kind of pain I've gone through. My mother beat the shit out of me! My father screamed at me every chance he got! My ex boyfriend beat me so badly I still have the pain today! Don't you think I understand I'm a disappointment?! Alvin and my parents made sure of it! All I do is think about how fucking worthless I am! Don't tell me I'm self-centered!" I shout with tears streaming down my face. He doesn't say anything. Niall steps in front of me, protectively. "Get out of here before I throw you through a wall," he growls to Harry. Harry glares at Niall then looks at Louis. "I'd listen to him if I were you. You're on very thin ice, especially with me," Louis says. Harry's face goes from pissed off to worried. "Do I need to make myself clear?" Niall says going closer to Harry. "No, I get it. I let my anger get the best of me. I'm sorry, Sarah," Harry says. "You're sorry? You just told me what I've been told by everyone else in our family. From practically everyone in my life," I say holding back a sob. My own brother hates me. I can't believe I was so stupid to believe anyone in my family cares about me. Niall pushing Harry towards the door snaps me back into focus. "Are either of you going to yell at him?" Harry asks. "Why should we? How you've acted is exactly how your father acted towards Sarah. It doesn't matter how sorry you are, it's going to take Sarah a while to trust you like that again," Louis says. Harry looks at me near tears. He moves to come near me, but Niall holds a hand on him to keep him away. "Sarah, I'm so so sorry. I didn't mean it. I was just pissed with Ray and I took it out on you. I'm so sorry," Harry says. I shut my eyes with my hands over my eyes. Flashes of my father overwhelm me.

"You worthless, bitch!"

"You destroyed this family!"

"You're a disgrace!"

"You'll never amount to anything!"

"No one will ever love you!"

"Just fucking die already!"

I start hitting my head trying to get the memories out. "Wh-what is she doing?" Harry asks. "Oh god, no," Louis says. Someone else holds my hands, stopping my from hurting myself further. I open my eyes, tears threatening to spill. "Let go of me," I say trying get out of his grip. "No, not until you've calmed down," he says. "Louis, please. I can't let his voice keep ringing in my head," I say. "Hitting yourself won't make it stop," he says. "But it helps," I say. "No," he says. I huff in defeat. I notice Niall's standing next to Louis with Harry standing closer to us. Worry and fear is plastered all over his face. "I'll be fine, Ni. I promise," I say. "How? You were just hitting yourself because of an episode," Niall says. "She hasn't done that in years. The stress of everything is just making things a worse. Once everything goes back to normal she'll get better," Louis says. I take a deep breathe. I know I will always be haunted by my parents and Alvin, but Louis and Niall will help me through it. Even if Harry and I are never the same again, it'll be okay because I'll have my fiance and best friend by my side. I wipe the tears away and look at Niall. "I'm going to be okay. I just need time to heal. I need to come to terms with what happened. I'll never be normal again, but that's okay. I have you guys and that's all that matters," I say. He nods his head still worried. "Come here," I say before hugging him. He holds onto me as if he'll lose me if he doesn't. "I'm going to be okay, Ni. I promise," I say. I will be okay. Not today, maybe not tomorrow. But one day I will. Everything will be okay one day.