When Love Conquers Two

Chapter 24

Previously in When Love Conquers Two
Sarah, Niall, Louis, Liam, Zayn, and Jake head back to the flat. Maya and Alyssa go to their houses. Gemma goes to the hotel. Sarah and Louis pick up Harry's car. Sarah gets a letter from the court saying that she and Harry have to go to Alvin, Tiffany, and Sarah's mother's trial. Sarah has a panic attack over it and Niall calms her down. Sarah and Niall talk over the fight they had. Calum calls Sarah and tells her that Alyssa broke up with him. Sarah goes to get her hair cut really short. Alyssa tells Sarah that she broke up with Calum because she's falling for Shawn Mendes.
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It's been 4 days since I cut my hair short. Zayn left yesterday to go back with his family since he has to go do promo stuff the 26th. It was nice for everyone to spending some time with him since he left the band. Liam went to his parents house. Maya went to Zac Efron's house to meet his parents for the first time. Alyssa is with her family in New York. Jake flew back home to stay with his family. So, it's just Niall, Louis, Gemma, Anne, Mr. Twist, and me. Louis is at Harry's hospital room. He spent the night there and let Anne and Mr. Twist get some rest in an actual bed. Niall's currently in the shower getting ready for us to leave for the hospital when my phone goes off. I answer it seeing it's Harry. "Hey, Haz. I was actually meaning to call you before we head over," I say leaning sitting on my bed. "Alright, what's up?" Harry asks. "I have to record a video for my channel. Do you mind if Niall goes to the hospital and I meet you guys there later??" I ask. "Oh yea. That's totally fine. You could do it here if you want. We could help you record it," he says. "You sure? I don't mind doing it here," I say. "Yea, it's fine. Gemma and Robin got my mum to go out to breakfast and come in later today. So, it'll be just Louis, Niall, you, and me," he says. "Well, thanks, Harry," I say happily. "No problem, Sarah," he says. "Now why did you call?" I ask confused. "Alright, David Beckham or Chris Martin?" Harry asks. "Um, why?" I ask confused. "Doesn't matter. Just answer the question," he says. "I guess David Beckham," I say. I hear Louis's voice in the back scream, "yes! I told you, Harry!" I laugh at Louis's reaction as Harry yells at Louis to shut up. "I'm going to go, Harry. Niall and I should be there in soon," I say once I stop laughing. "Alright. Be careful and get here in one piece," Harry says. "I will, Harry," I say. I hang up before going to get my stuff together. Hopefully the wifi doesn't suck ass today and I can upload the video on time. I put my camera and laptop in their cases. I put all the wires for everything in the cases they belong in. I'm just going to bring my wallet so I just put that in the pocket of my laptop case. I just finish up getting everything together when I hear the bathroom door open. I look over and see Niall walking out fully dressed. I smile at him. He smiles back as he sits on next to me on the bed. "Did you call Harry?" Niall asks as he starts putting his shoes on. "Yea, he said I can just record the video there," I say standing up to grab my stuff. "Oh okay. Do you need some help caring your stuff?" He says. "Uh yea, if you don't mind," I say grabbing my laptop case. Niall stands up and comes over to me. I hand him my camera case. It's pretty big since I use it to carry my tripod in it, which can fold up to be a little smaller. I put my phone in my back pocket. Niall and I head out to the car after Niall grabs the keys. We put the laptop case and camera case in the back seats of the car. Niall opens my door for me. I smile at him as a thank you as I climb in. He smiles back at me as he closes the door. I buckle my seat belt and put my phone in the cup holder. Niall hops in and buckles his seat belt. He starts the engine. "Do you have any idea what you're going to do for the video?" Niall asks as he pulls out of the drive way. "I was thinking of just a vlog. Just updating them on some things and talking to them about some of the comments I've seen lately on the videos," I say. Niall and I talk for the rest of the ride to the hospital. When we get there, Niall helps me carry in my stuff. Thankfully we got a close spot so we don't have to carry this stuff far. We go inside and walk to the elevator. When we get to Harry's hospital room, it's unusually quiet. "Um, why the hell are you two so quiet?" Niall asks putting the camera case on the couch. "He's mad at me because I said that David Beckham is hotter than Chris Martin," Louis says. "You're still on that?" I ask putting the laptop case down. "Yes, Chris Martin is ten times better than David Beckham," Harry says. I roll my eyes as I open my camera case. I take my camera out. I get my laptop out and turn it on. I place it on the couch. "Which one of you can record the video for me?" I ask turning the camera on. "Well, I'd probably break the camera. So not me," Louis says. "I'll do it," Niall says chuckling at what Louis said. "Alright, you know how to work it?" I ask handing him the camera. Niall takes the camera. "Yea. You press this button to record. And this one to stop recording," he says pointing to the buttons. I push my laptop and cases out of the way.  "Alright. Tell me when you're recording," I say sitting on the couch. "Okay, you're good to go," Niall says after a few seconds. "Hey, guys! It's your girl, Sarah. Today I'm just going to update you guys on some things and talk to you about some comments I've been reading from you guys. First off, as you can tell I'm not at home. I'm actually in a hospital. That's also why this video will have shitty sound quality. Sorry about that. If you haven't heard, Harry was shot a couple days ago. He's doing a lot better. Say hi, Harry," I say with a smile on my face. Niall faces the camera to Harry. Harry waves and says hi. Niall turns the camera back to me. "Secondly, videos may not be coming out on time for a while. I have to record my second album with my band, get ready for tour in a few months. Also, I have to go to court for my little sister being kidnapped. She unfortunately got shot and passed away shortly after. Harry and I will be there to represent her," I say. I take a deep breathe to calm myself down. I can tell I'm about to start having a panic attack if I don't calm down. "Anyways, lately I've been noticing a lot of comments from you guys saying how my videos help you get through tough times in your life. This one comment in particular stuck out to me the most. I'm not going to say who it was from or what exactly this person said. But they basically said how they were going to kill themself that night they saw a video of mine. The video this person saw helped them get through their tough time and keep pushing forward. I apperciate that my videos can shed some light in your life when no one else can. I know personally how hard it is to get out of bed in the morning when all you want to do is fall asleep and never wake up. But I promise, it'll get better. I know everyone says that and it's hard to believe when all you can think of is ending your life. If you end your life, you have no idea how many people will be devistated by it. It may seem like no one gives a shit. I understand, I've been there. Trust me. But you need to keep holding on. Even if it's just for one more day. Just keep pushing through whatever it is you're going through. I'm talking from experience when I say ending your life can hurt so many people. People you may think hate you, turn out to have loved you with all of their heart. It could lead to them getting in a similar mind set you had. Your loved ones will ask for the rest of their lives what they could've done differently. If you're thinking of taking your life, please reach out to someone. I'll listen to whatever it is you're going through. There are so many people in this community that will gladly help you get through your hard time. I promise that it'll get better. Maybe not tomorrow or next week. Hell, it may not get better for months. But it will get better eventually. This hard time is just that. A hard time. The good will come eventually. It won't last forever even if it seems like it will. I'll post the numbers for depression and suicide lines in the description," I say.  I take another deep breathe before saying, "well that's it for today. I'm going to be doing my cover of Lullaby by Nickelback. Just listen to the words of this song. I mean every word." I look down at my hands and sit up straight before singing, "I know the feeling
Of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge
And there ain't no healing
From cuttin' yourself with the jagged edge
I'm tellin' you that it's never that bad
And take it from someone who's been where your at
You're laid out on the floor and you're not sure
You can take this anymore
So just give it one more try
With a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reachin' out to let you know
That you're not alone
And you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Please let me take you
Out of the darkness and into the light
'Cause I have faith in you
That you're gonna make it through another night
Stop thinkin' about the easy way out
There's no need to go and blow the candle out
Because you're not done, you're far too young
And the best is yet to come
So just give it one more try
With a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reachin' out to let you know
That you're not alone
And you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Well everybody's hit the bottom
And everybody's been forgotten
Well everybody's tired of being alone
Yeah everybody's been abandoned
And left a little empty handed
So if you're out there barely hangin', on
Just give it one more try
With a lullaby
And turn this up on the radio
If you can hear me now
I'm reachin' out to let you know
That you're not alone
And you can't tell, I'm scared as hell
'Cause I can't get you on the telephone
So just close your eyes
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby
Well honey here comes a lullaby
Your very own lullaby." (Song's above. I recommend you listen to it. It has a lot of meaning to it. You can always message me if you just need someone to listen.)