An Old Friend ✔️

SIXTEEN

Jin had collapsed against the mirror pulling me down with him. He opened his legs after pulling up his boxers and pants, making me sit between his legs. I was able to slip my panties up my legs and throw my tank top over me so I was at least a little covered. His arms wrapped around me tightly, and he rested his head against my shoulder. 

"What now?" I asked after several minutes of silence. 

He held me even closer before letting out a deep sigh. "We should probably talk." 

"Yeah we should." I smiled.

"Can I make one request?" 

"Mhmm." 

"While we talk, no running." His hold on me tightened even more. "Please don't run from me anymore." 

"Okay." I replied feeling his heart start to beat rapidly. 

"You promise?" 

I placed my hands over his taking hold. "I promise, as long as you don't think about me as weird or pathetic."

"I promise." 

I let out a deep breath and pulled myself up from him. I turned around and sat cross legged in front of him. "I'm cold now." he pouted. 

I laughed and rolled my eyes. "Stop being cute and flirty. All that kind of behavior needs to stop until we have this conversation. No kissing, no touching; be serious."

His pout turned into a serious look and he sat straighter and pulled his legs to cross in front of him. "Okay, that's fair. Can I start?" 

"Sure." I nodded. 

"First of all, I need you to understand that I do not see you as the girl I once knew. You are clearly a different, more mature woman, and I would never insult you by thinking you were the same person you were so long ago." 

"I appreciate that." I said softly. 

He nodded and continued. "Secondly, I want to make clear that I do not regret sleeping with you. Either time. I don't just go around sleeping with people willy nilly, I assume you don't either." I shook my head at his question. "I think something in me sparked when I saw you, and seeing you in a new light, a different woman, but still the person I used to know just...I don't know how to explain it." 

But he didn't have to. 

I knew what he was saying. 

I felt the same way. If possible, after being with him the short time I was with him made my affections for him grow. When I was a girl, it was 90% emotional love for him. As a woman, the physical need to love him was more overwhelming than normal. 

I understood. 

"You dont have to explain." I smiled. "I feel something similar." 

"Were you really not going to go to the reunion because of me?" 

I looked away from his sad eyes unable to bare his pain. I nodded slightly and swallowed. "That is true." 

"Why?" 

"I didn't want to feel pathetic like I did back then. You clearly did not see me the same way I saw you and I felt like seeing you would just...make me feel pathetic all over again." 

"Do you feel that way now?" He asked as I turned back towards him. 

"I don't think so." 

"You don't think so?" 

"I mean...I don't feel the same. I mean...we've slept together. I assume there is some physical attraction for that to have happened?"

"There is." He said in a deep voice not looking away from me.