Lost

Chapter 12 (Ally)

He grabbed the phone off me answering James. I knew one day it would come through, I knew there was something between us but then he started hurting me and I had to go, I couldn't stand the fact of seeing him, not the fact that he hurt me, that part was bearable, it was the pain of seeing him so lost.
Why does it have to be just after I accepted Alex?
No. He could turn any moment and I would be lost once again. I love Alex, he will always protect me.
Alex gets off the phone and hugs me "I love you Ally, never forget that." I smile leaning into him, kissing his sweet lips. He pulls back surprised "We really should get going." He grabs my hand playing with it, but as soon as we walk in the kitchen he drops it. Sitting down to the roast Mum asks "What did James want?" "Just to check I was ok." "Are you?" "No, but not in any physical way." I reply. After dinner Alex and I put our dishes and head back upstairs to my room, continuing to play Monopoly. "Mum doesn't want me going to school tomorrow." I say. "Why?" He looks up, his eyes saddening. "She thinks I need a break from school." "Oh." He gets up and places his hands on the window sill. I walk over, my feet lightly denting the carpet. "What's wrong?" I whisper wrapping my arms around his waist. "I love you and can't stand the fact of you being hurt so much you don't want to go to school." Tears begin to crawl down my face, soaking my freckles. He whispers "I'm scared of the fact that if you stay at home I won't see you again." He finally turns around till I see the unshed tears in his sapphire eyes. He pulls me in close, laying my head on his chest, I whisper "I'm not going anywhere." He smiles that heart stopping smile.
We finish up our game of Monopoly, Alex won. Heading down stairs for dessert, and then continuing to turn on a movie.
After the movie finishes Mum drops Alex back home since it's too late to walk home. I head up to my room covering my face with the pillow, my body trembles as each tear leaks from my eye. I get up chucking the soaked pillow against the window, I try and stop the tears but I can't. Jumping in the shower, letting the warm water soak into my skin. My heart tearing my body apart from the inside out, I fall on the floor, curling my legs up to my chest letting the water massage my back. It's no use. I slam the water off; drying myself, changing into some PJ's and climb under my welcoming duvet.
I close my eyes.
I have never felt so lost in all my life.