My Bastard Mafia Leader (Completed)

Mistakes

One month later
It's been a month since I last saw him. I've been staying with Mia. I know I can't stay here forever but I don't want to face him. I forgave him 2 weeks after he came to Mia's apartment. He doesn't know that though. I've been trying to think of a way to go home and I think I've come to a conclusion. I just have to talk to him. I'm sure if I see him face to face it will all be well.

Everyone has told me he has been a mess though. They say he has drank almost every night and he has been more ruthless with victims than normal.

Nick, who I haven't heard from in a while has been sending me updates on what's going on. He has also told, well asked me to go back with Ashton. He keeps saying Ashton needs me. Whether Ashton needs me or not I need him. I miss him so much and I fill up with guilt every time I think about how I haven't gone back. I mean, I forgave him.

Today is the day though, I'm going back home. Nick says he will be gone all day and I can drop off my stuff and go out for a while.

"I'm going back." I tell her.

"With him?"

"Yes."

"I'm proud of you. Besides the both of you have been a mess without each other." She states honestly.

"Yeah, maybe a little bit. I'm going to go get my things now before I change my mind." I went to my temporary room there and grabbed my stuff. I got it all to fit in my suitcase and put it in my trunk.

I talked with Mia for a few minutes while thanking her for everything. When I made it to the car I was nervous as hell. Driving home I was just a mess.

All I could think of was he probably doesn't even want to see me. What if he's mad at how long I took to come home. What if he doesn't like me anymore. What if he's moved on. What if he doesn't love me?

This month I realized that I loved Ashton more everyday I was away from him. Maybe he didn't love me before and maybe he still doesn't love me now but we had a connection and I don't want to lose that. I don't want to lose him.

I pulled up and the driveway was empty just like I expected. I grabbed my suitcase and slowly went inside. Everything was just like I remember. I made my way upstairs unsure what to do.

Before I left we slept in his bed together but I'm not sure he wants to now. I don't want to cross the line. He hurt me yes, but I hurt him too. I know that.

I left my bag pushed up against the wall in the middle of the hallway between his room and mine. I decided to go to the waterfall to take a breather. By the time I made it there most of my worries started to go away. Taking a seat on the big rock, I started to sing again. It's been awhile since I've sang and made a song.

We were strong and tall
We weren't afraid to fall
And everybody knew

We had some hard times
But we always came through
Only problem is...

Now we're falling in this deep hole
And I'm terrified, I'm terrified

We were once strong and tall
Now all we can do is fall

We weren't afraid
Now we're running from the truth

Those big signs and colorful lights
Are now dim and going away
We're going away
Now I'm away
All alone

We said nothing could break us apart
We were in love and young
We thought the whole world would change for us
Well, we were wrong

We were crazy and alive
We were crazy to the end
But we were crazy together
Now I'm going crazy by myself

We had some hard times
But we always came through
Only problem is...

Now we're falling in this deep hole
And I'm terrified, I'm terrified

We were once strong and tall
Now all we can do is fall

We weren't afraid
Now we're running from the truth

Those big signs and colorful lights
Are now dim and going away
We're going away
Now I'm away
And all alone

After an 3 hours of sitting on the rock I finished my song. I knew it was about Ashton and I along with some added parts. I also knew I should go home. Ashton should be done with work by now.

The drive felt quite fast. Faster than I would've hoped. I tried to find every escuse I could to turn around but each time I told myself no. I have to do this. Besides, I'm sure everything will work out fine.

I pulled in and his car was there. Along with another car. I think it was his sisters car all honesty.

When entering the house I could faintly hear sobbing from upstairs. The closer I got not only did I hear sobs I also heard someone reassuring her. Ashton.

I walked around the corner and they were in the hallway. She saw me and froze. Her face went blank. Ashton turned around and froze as well.

"Are you ok Dee?"

"It's Daliyah to you." She said. Her voice was as cold as ice.

It hurt. I'm not gonna lie but I understood her point of view. I hurt her brother and family sticks together.

"I'm sorry. Are you ok Daliyah?"

She chuckled. "You hurt my family. We may have been friends before but that bridge is gone. You hurt him! He made a mistake, you don't have to make him suffer as a result! Why are you even here?" Her voice filled with distaste.

"I came back." I said quietly. I feel like I'm getting scolded by my mother.

"Why?"

I knew the answer but I wasn't going to say it. This is not the way I'm going to tell him. I love him and that is why I came back.

"..."

"That's what I thought. You don't deserve my brother or anyone else for that matter. Go back to where you came from and get lost."

I turned around to go back downstairs when he spoke. "Why now?" I turned to face him and gave him a small smile and left.

In the backyard I went deep back into the maze he had. It wasn't there last time I was here so he must've just got it but I kept going farther and farther back. I stopped when I reached another dead end. I took a seat and started to cry.

He hurt me bad but in my process of forgiving him I wrecked our relationship even more. There's no way everything will be alright.