The Date Planner

1.6. Guilty As Charged

"Earth to Tina", Liza jumps in front of my face and I squint back in my seat at the sudden intrusion.

"Have you even been listening to a single word I've been telling you?", she frowns at me with one hand on her hip and feet tapping away impatiently at the floor of my cabin.

It's Monday and I can't seem to get Jason out of my head. We haven't talked since that movie night at his apartment and honestly, the silence is killing me.

Jason is not the type of person who bails on you. He's that nagging friend who is consistently behind you, grabbing for your attention but ever since that day and night, it's been so lonely without him even with Liza by my side, that I can't help but be worried because it's so unlike him.

Sure Liza has kept me up and about, fully entertained with her antics, with the upcoming dates and schedules that I've to see through but my mind is just somewhere else despite it all.

Also a small part of me is still wondering about... Clinton.

To be honest, I never thought he would give up on me so easily and I was intrigued to see what lengths he could go to, to get to me. But I guess...

He really wasn't that serious about it.

Anyhow back to the present.

"I'm sorry, what were you saying?", I look up at her from behind my desk as she hovers over me, glaring.

"I'm talking about...", she drags, then sighs before huffing.

"Forget it, what's on your mind?", she asks, her eyes softening at my distracted sight.

"Make a wild guess", I say with a dry humor to my tongue.

"Jason?", she squints at me.

"Bullseye", I make a gun with my hands and aim it at her, before shooting an imaginary bullet at her, confirming her thoughts.

She shakes her head at me before sorting through some of the files on my table.

"Shouldn't you be worrying about Clinton though?", she asks me, distractedly.

"Why would I be worried about him?", I ask her incredulously.

She stops whatever she's sorting through and drops a bunch of files from her hands on the table. Her eyes widen and her mouth opens agape as she turns towards me which seems to be shock.

"Uh...", I look at her incredulously, confused as to her reaction and think about what am I missing?

"We just lost a loyal client and all you're worried about is Jason?!", she spats at me incredulously angrily as if she cannot believe me doing this.

I swallow hard on nothing because apparently the look on Liza's face says it all and I can't help but feel guilty about it.

She's right.

My actions did make me loose a loyal client and that too none other than the one my boss is friends with.

For someone like me who has always been a very focused employee and at the top of her game, my focus shouldn't have been tethered elsewhere. Even if it's because of Jason.

I look down at my lap, hanging my head in shame and not looking upto her.

God, I feel so bad now.

"Tina, I'm not guilt-tripping you because you had to do what you had to do. I'm supporting your decision as a friend but as someone who works for you and has been working as much hard enough as you, I'm really disappointed", she finishes her speech, almost spatting at me.