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Jin walked with me heading towards my room. It's quite unsual for him not to speak anything at all and I'm starting to worry on why he is like that.
"You just scold him awhile ago and told him to shut up, no wonder he doesn't talk."
There is V again, bugging in my conscience. But he's right, maybe I offended him, he seemed to be so pure and innocent on how the world can be cruel, I needed to say sorry to him. I stopped walking and faced him, Jin stopped walking and looked at me his blue eyes wondering why I stopped.
"Jin," I sighed before talking again, I'm nervous, it's unusual for me to apologize to someone, "I'm sorry if I scold you a while ago, I didn't mean to, it's just I'm not used to someone like you who always talk a lot. I'll try to adjust to you and your personality, I'm really sorry."
He beamed at me again and he seemed to be recharged of his energy after I said sorry to him.
"OH MY GOD! I felt relieved! I really thought that you are going to kill me in your room because you're irritated with me, like did you know how much my heart pounds while walking here? I even repented to my sins and sad sorry to God to all my sins. But thank goodness you will still let me live. I'm sorry I'm talkative but I can't help myself, I feel like exploding if I don't release all my thoughts. Don't worry I'll try to tone it down for you, but don't expect much of me, okay? I don't think this will go away easily.Don't worry, I'm not mad at you for scolding me, mom does that too, she said I'm wasting my time talking, like how is talking a waste of time? I can't see the logoc there! Oh, well, nevermind, Just know that I will never be mad at you. You're too nice to me."
My lips formed into a thin line, here he is again. I turned my back again and walked to my room, Jin is now jumping while walking and humming songs along the way. He's okay now he's back at being hyperactive.
I sat on the side of my bed and Jin settled on the couch in my room. My forehead knots at his action, does he think I'll let him sleep there? "Jin, you will sleep here. Not on the couch your body will hurt. Stand up there and come here."
He stood up and hesitantly sat on the other side of the bed, "Taehyung, isn't this awkward that I'm sharing a bed with you? I'm okay in the other room, it's not like someone would barge in and take advantage of me and kill me. Your house is safe, right?"
What he said just doubled up the fear I have. "I won't let that happen to you again" I unconsciously said my thoughts and it's late to take it back.
"What do you mean again? It hasn't happened to me before. Calm down Taehyung, nothing bad wilk happen. I'll go back to that room and sleep. I don't want to cause you trouble. Don't bother letting me in here, it's fine I can take care of my self."
He got up and I prevented him by grabbing his wrist.
"Don't go, just don't go, they might come back, they will take you away again, stay here. I will sleep on the couch tonight, just don't go there."
My fears is taking over me and I didn't realize the words that comes out of my mouth. Jin sat again on the edge of the bed and made me look at him, "What's the problem, Taehyung? I can sense your afraid, my wolf is telling me, what troubles you? Why are you so terrified?"
Should I tell him? But I don't want to relieve those memories again, I don't want those inages haunt me again everytime I close my eyes. I don't want to feel terrified about everything again, I shouldn't tell him.
I shouldn't tell him because he will hate me so much, he won't understand.
"Hey, Taehyung, talk to me please. Are you okay? You're trembling." I can see him already panicking, I tried to steady my breathing and talk to him. "I'm okay, it's nothing, just don't go back there. Stay here."
"Okay, I'll stay here." He pulled me into a hug and my face is buried in his neck. I can smell his scent invading my senses and it immediately calmed me down just like what happened in the forest earlier.
"Tell me everything when you're ready, Taehyung. I will patiently wait for that day, now sleep and rest. You need that." He caressed my head and played with my hair making me doze of to sleep.
