Stone Cold Heart

♡ Chapter 4 ♡

The next day I got up early to wake up Mac for school. It was about 6:30 in the morning. I really didn't have the energy to want to get out of bed. But I had to remind myself every day that everything I do is for her. When I was going to get out of bed, I felt a hand grab my waist and I heard Scott's croaky voice ask "Where are you going, babe?"
"To take Mac a shower and get her ready to go to school. "
"Okay, be back soon I want to cuddle" What's up with his happy attitude. Guess I caught him on one of his good days then. I turned around and gave him a sweet kiss and whispered on his lips "I'll be back trust me"
We shared a few more kisses before I left the room and went to Mac's room. I turned on the light and said "Alright Missy time to get up" I didn't hear a response and then I came to her bed and said, "Well I think ima have to call Mr. Tickle Monster"
Before she can respond, I tickled her belly. She giggled in a childish way.
"See I knew Mac was up"
"That's not fair Mami, you cheated"
"No Mr. Tickle Monster said you weren't listening"
"He lied to you "
"Oh, he never lies"
"What he tells you?"
"If it doesn't work then to go get daddy to get you"
"No, not Mr. Tickle Monster"
"Well he told me you have to listen to Mami then"
"Fine, can you help me up"
I picked her up and carried her to the bathroom that was right next door. When I turned on the shower, she got in and I washed her up. While doing so she asked me "Mama can you sing to me?"
"Hun I'm sorry I wish I can, but daddy is sleeping"
"Okay, Mami"
"Sure, sweetie what do you wanna hear?"
"Beautiful"
"You must be a mind reader; I was thinking of that"
She giggled before I hummed to the song by Christina Aguilera. When I was done cleaning her up, I took the towel that was hanging on the rack and wrapped her with it. She waddled herself to her room and I closed the door behind us when we entered her room. I got her dressed and fixed her hair before I drove her off to school.

When I got home, Scott was in bed still sleeping. I took off my shoes and crawled into bed next to him and snuggled close to him. He wrapped his arm around me, that's how I knew he was up. I put my hand on either side of his waist and lay my head on his chest. Just enjoying the warmth.
These moments are the ones I yearn for. I softly say "I love you" to him and he says it back in a sheepish tone. To wake him up, I kissed his chest first, then I trailed kisses up to his neck, then I went up to his chiseled jawline and stopped at his lips. He smirked and moved his hands to my head where his fingers tangled in my short black locks. I deepened the kiss and he did the same. I made myself comfortable by sliding myself on top of him and grazed my teeth on his bottom lip. I broke the kiss for air and got up to straddle him while I took off my shirt, revealing bra.
He looked at me and smiled as I unhooked it, leaving me bare. I smiled back when his hands slid from my thighs up to my breast, which we're in plain view for his eyes only. He is the only man that ever saw me like this. Making love with him makes me forget the fact that I had bruises...just for a moment in time. Mackenzie was still at daycare when it was around 5 p.m., Scott was home early and I didn't know.

I rushed dinner and messed it up. He came into the kitchen and yelled "Marie! Why the hell does this chicken taste cold?!"
"I'm sorry I didn't know I thought you were working late"
"Never ask me when I'm coming home, you know that"
"Okay...but it's just that you want dinner done before you come home how do you expect me to do this all in such a short time"
Suddenly I felt his hand clash with my cheek "don't you ever raise your voice to me you hear me. Now do this shit over this is disgusting." I remade dinner and he was satisfied. When he was done, I cleaned up and he sat on the couch. While I was sweeping the floor, he got up and walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me I just stood there. He kissed my neck. I felt no connection. I tried to push him away from me and it was a success. I said "Please move I need to finish"
But then he smacked me and said "Listen you will appreciate everything I give and do, to and for you, now get your ass up and finish and meet me upstairs. I got something for us to do"
"But what about Mackenzie, I need to go pick her up"
"Fine but you better be home in thirty minutes' tops"
"Okay"

After giving Scott his dinner, I still kissed his cheek and said "I love you" before leaving. No matter what we go through, I always did that before leaving, because I never know when is the last time, I will see him, so I say those words just in case, God forbid, I get into a car accident. I don't want my last words to be hateful. I always lived by that ever since My friend passed. I walked up to the floor where she was at. She was the only kid there coloring, waiting to be picked up. I felt bad that I had to leave her like this. She didn't see the guilty in my face because when she saw me, she ran up to me and hugged me. I squatted down and asked, "how was your day baby girl?"
"good, Mami look what I made for you" Showing me her coloring of Cinderella. I gave her and kiss and said "thank you, sweetheart, let's go home"
I signed her out and we walked back to the car and I strapped her in the car seat. Then I went to the driver's side and put on my seatbelt and turned on the car. While I waited for the engine to get warm, Mackenzie asked "What happened to your cheek?"
"I got cut"
"How?"
"I just did."
"Where's daddy?"
"Home"
"He home early?"
"...yeah Hun"
"Can we go to the movies as a family when we get home"
"no Mackenzie can you stop with the questions?!"
I didn't realize it but I raised my voice at her and she started crying. I tried to ignore it while I took off on the road. 10 minutes later she was still crying and it seemed like she was getting louder and louder. I scream at her again banging onto the steering wheel "stop crying damn it!"
She stopped and when I looked back at her she looked in shock and yelled "Mami!" I jerked my head and gripped the wheel, making a sharp 180° turn, and the next thing I know I was blacked out.