Stone Cold Heart

♡ Chapter 24 ♡

When I finally got to Chassidy's, in thirty minutes she opened the door for me, and I just said "Hey"
"Hey, come in"
I gladly did then sit down waiting for my children to arrive from daycare by Chassidy's boyfriend, although I'm a little hesitant to not let him, I did because I didn't want my kids to see me in that horrible predicament. Chassidy started the small talk and said, "So how was it with you, and Scott did y'all fix things?" If you mean by force, then yeah.
"Um...about that...it's a long story..."
"Marie, what happened?"
I didn't say a word; I just took off my left glove then unwrapped the bandaged to show her the scar tissue that is beginning to heal. She gasped at the horrid injury. She began to cry and said, "Marie what did he do to you?"
I explained to her all of how it all started to how it ended, and where I have been hiding out at for the past few days. She gave me a hug and said "You should have called me"
"It wasn't that easy Chass. I couldn't because I was afraid, he might find me"
"You're safe here"
"Do you have a place to stay with the kids?"
"No... we'll not anymore"
"I got a new futon, y'all can crash here for as long as you need."
"Thank you so much"
"I'm so sorry this happened to you Marie"
"It's okay... I will get through it as mama told me 'everything happens for a reason' and I think this is my lesson to learn"
"It's good that you see the good in the most horrible situation"
"Yeah... I guess so"
I smiled at her suddenly I see my two little ones run up to me giving me a huge hug. I kissed them and cried tears of joy. I'm blessed with everyone that was there with me. They may see me standing strong. But I'm doing it for them, showing them what a strong woman is. But...in reality, I'm dying on the floor crying for someone to take this pain that is beginning to build up in my heart. I wonder if I will ever get through all this pain. I know that when I do it will be worth it in the end.
Later that night I gasped out of my sleep in a panic with tears and sweat dripping down my face. I felt like I couldn't breathe and my heart was racing. I yelled for Marissa because I couldn't handle myself. Marissa stormed into the room busting through the door to comfort me. I was shaking and I didn't feel like I could handle myself I was shaking in fear. I grasped onto her shirt and cried hysterically. She ran her fingers through my hair and whispered, "It was just a dream here Marie. It's over now. You're safe"
"P-please not let him hurt us"
She whispered "he's gone he won't hurt yall...I promise"
Another nightmare that I lost my breath to... I wish it was a nightmare but...it wasn't. I know I'm supposed to feel safe...but it's hard for me to know that if my children were really safe. I looked over at the side of me saw my two little ones still asleep.
"Chass...It happened again though.... accept it felt so vivid like I was reliving every single moment all over again." I grasped onto her shirt and cried almost out of breath with every sob. All the pain and torment I had put myself through just to get where I'm at now. I remember everything. Every bruise, whelp, emotional, physical, and verbal abuse he caused to me. Every kiss, every holiday...just everything. All in one. I couldn't stop crying because I didn't want to relive it all over again. But every time I close my damn eyes his face is all I see.
He is all I ever loved since I was young. He was my everything. To think that I was happy for all these years. Just to make my children happy. What was I thinking? I should have left but I didn't because that's how deep my love was for him. I was stupid enough to get through hell for ten years! I lay my head on Chassidy's chest still crying my eyes out silently. Chassidy was the only one I trusted enough to run to. She has no idea how blessed I am to have her in my life. If it wasn't for her.... that night...I don't even know if I would have got out of that house alive. It hurts me to know that I won't be able to like but just as mama said. I don't need any man to make me
happy. I know I can get through this and I'm going to do right for my kids. I didn't want to stay living with Chassidy forever. I wanted to pursue my dream of becoming a police officer.

I already did online classes at Community College to get my Bachelor's and Associate's degrees. Then I got my degree in law enforcement. It took me a total of 3 years because I already had my high school diploma. You are probably wondering how I managed to get all that when this mothafucker was running me. I secretly got it online three months after Mackenzie was born. I just lied there crying. I must have cried so much that my head was hurting and my face was throbbing. I cried myself to sleep I didn't want to go back to sleep because I was afraid to feel the memories again. But then again, I was so exhausted I have cried for over an hour. When I woke up, I was in the house alone. Chassidy must've taken the kids to school for me.