Pain First, Love Last [COMPLETED]

Not Today

I woke up to the sun hitting my face. I stretched and smiled. I actually slept well. I got up and went to my bathroom.

Once I walked in, I realized things were moved around

Where the hell is my comb

I kept looking until I realized I wasn't at my house. I ran out of the bedroom into the living room. Everyone was in the living room conversating. They all looked at me.

"Goodmorning Y/N"

Taehyung said to me smiling.

"What time is it?"

Namjoon looked at the clock then back at me.

"7:30"

My heart dropped. I replayed my usual mornings at home. Lesley would've woke me up 30 minutes ago, I would get ready then go downstairs, dad would've told me to be careful, Lester would be driving me to school by now and I'd get there 10 minutes before 8.

I know daddy's looking for me, I. Am. Dead. I ran back to the bedroom I was staying in and jumped on the bed reaching for my phone. I checked to see 10 messages from Lesley and 2 messages from Lester, none from my dad.

"Y/N where are you?"

"you're lucky I'm the person I am little girl,"

"I won't snitch you out I promise"

"Come home quickly"

"I'll cover for you but you better be home after school."

I took a sigh of relief. I really owe her.

"Thank you so much Les, I'll be home don't worry.

I then checked my messages from Lester.

"I don't know where you are but your father almost went looking for you"

"I had to go out to the car and pretend you were already in there and I was driving you off already. You. Owe. Me.

The difference between Lesley and Lester. I chuckled to myself and responded to him.

"Thank you Lester. I'm on my way to school now don't worry."

I put my phone in my pocket and headed back to them. Before I could make it out of the hall, I was pushed against the wall harshly. My eyes were closed due to the impact. Once I opened my eyes, I saw Jungkook glaring at me.

"what"

I said harshly at him. He dug his face into my neck letting me feel his breath against my neck.

"Don't do anything stupid"

I immediately pushed him off of me angrily.

"Get off me idiot. Leave me alone and stop trying to act tough"

He gripped my wrists tightly looking deep in my eyes. I melted right at his feet with just a look.

"I mean it Y/N."

"Or else what"

I said and I almost immediately regretted saying that. He let me go and walked away. I was so lost at this point. I watched him walk away and all my thoughts came back to me. I can not catch feelings, I have to kill him, I have to kill him, I HAVE to KILL him.

I sighed deeply. This whole plan is slowly going downhill but I'm not giving up until the job is done.

I walked back to the living room and they all were putting shoes on. I looked at them realizing I have no clothes for school and they laughed at me.

"You still look beautiful Y/N don't worry. Especially if you're by my side"

I chuckled at his remark. I felt Jungkook glare at me. I was so confused it was frustrating where I just wanted to give up.

I just got in the car with them and we all went to school. I had no idea they all went to my school, cool.

While in the car, my phone dinged. I checked and it was my father. I quickly opened it.

"When you get home, we need to talk immediately."

"Yes dad"

I responded quickly and put my phone down.

After 10 minutes, we showed up at school. Jimin and Hoseok walked me to class and I bid them a farewell.

After school, Lester picked me up and I thanked him once again. Once we got home, I went straight to my father's office. I knocked lightly.

'Dad I am home"

"Come in "

I walked in and saw my father sitting at his desk. I was gone for one morning and come back to my father with major eye bags, messy hair, and 4 different cups of coffee which is cold now.

I sat down in front of him. He held my hands and looked me in my eyes.

"Tonight there is a ball for all of the gangs, in memory of all the previous leaders of every gang. There's a high chance Jeon's son will be there and I am relying on you to finish him off my daughter"

I sighed heavily at my exhausted father

"Daddy I think you should get some rest, you've been working really hard trying to figure out what Jeon's son looks like. I think it's time we move on daddy"

He glared at me and stood up.

"Don't you EVER say I need to move on! I am perfectly fine Y/N!"

He grabbed the coffee mugs and threw then at the walls causing me to flinch. He threw papers everywhere and ruined his office. I sat there unsure of what to do while my father throws a tantrum.

I got up and hugged my father. He resisted at first but melted into the hug. He hugged me back and cried into my neck. My father was a true mess. I want him to be happy.

I thought as I rubbed his back slowly as he continued to cry.

"I miss your mother Y/N, the love of my life. The one woman who accepted me for me and never let me go no matter how difficult I was towards her. No matter how many times I dragged her into my gang affiliations, she stuck by my side and loved every part of me"

I felt heartbroken knowing how heartbroken my father was. I know there is only one way to make him happy, something that gives him closure, an opportunity to finally move on.

I sighed lightly at him and looked at the mess I had in front of me.

"I'll go to the ball tonight dad, anything for you to be happy again. Even if it means killing an innocent person."