Benefits

SIX

"You found someone new?"Namjoon looked at Yoongi, gesturing to the marks on his neck.
Yoongi laughed awkwardly, then frowned again. "No. It's...it's still Hoseok...I tried to make him realise that whatever we have is gonna end up ruining his relationship but he won't listen..."
"Do you like it?"
"Of course I do. I love Hoseok with everything I have, but..."He trailed off, and looked down. "He's just my drug dealer. We're just friends with benefits. Nothing more. Honestly?That's okay. It hurts but it's okay because it's Hoseok."
"Yoongi...that's not healthy."
"It's fine."Yoongi sighed, resting his head on his hand. "I don't deserve his love so sex will do."
"Wait, you genuinely love him?"Seokjin stared at Yoongi.
"You act like it wasn't painfully obvious that I love him."Yoongi mumbled. "I've never been in love with anyone before, not like this...but he doesn't feel the same..."He looked at his notebook. "It's stupid."
"What is?"
"I thought I had a chance."Yoongi felt like an idiot. "I thought that, maybe, he would eventually ask me out...ask me to be his boyfriend...but that's just me being all sentimental and shit again..."
"Aw, hyung."Namjoon placed a hand on Yoongi's shoulder. "Don't give up. He mig-"
"Namjoon you don't get it."Yoongi sighed heavily. "He doesn't mean anything. He doesn't even touch me if we're not intoxicated by something. I'm just a fuck buddy. And I want out of it, but then I'll have no connection with him cause he has ridiculous prices for weed and I get it for free by letting him use me up. It's absolutely fucking awful but I can't help it."
Namjoon and Seokjin looked at each other, knowing that this wasn't okay.

It wasn't okay at all.