Benefits

TWELVE

Yoongi gasped softly as Hoseok pushed up into him.
They were going at it again.
"Fuck..."Yoongi sighed quietly, slowly rocking his hips.
Hoseok's fingers were digging into the flesh of Yoongi's thighs.
"Oh, oh god."Yoongi choked back a moan as he started to ride him gently.
"Fuck, baby."Hoseok rest his back on the headboard, holding Yoongi in place. "So hot baby, so fucking hot."
"Hoseok, god, yes..."Yoongi whimpered, practically slamming himself down on Hoseok by now.
He felt high on life.
This felt so good, he can't think about anything other than this.
Until realisation came crashing down onto Yoongi, and he wasn't so vocal anymore.
He completely forgot that they weren't—
That this wasn't—
God.
He forgot he wasn't Hoseok's.
He completely forgot that this was just another meaningless hook up.
"Baby?"Hoseok noticed Yoongi's sudden shortage of cries. "You hurt or somethin?"
Yes. "Nah, why?"Yoongi mumbled, still going down on him.
"You got quiet. 's all."He thrust up again.
Yoongi spread his legs a little wider, still going down on him.
He just didn't moan as meaningfully.
Every time he forgot that they weren't together.
It destroyed him.
Really, it did.
To pretend you were dating a man who never wants to date you.
A man who has a girlfriend.
Every single time, he forgot that Hoseok was just using him.
"Baby, fuck, almost there..."Hoseok groaned lightly, his head tilting back.
Yoongi whimpered, shutting his eyes tight.
He wasn't able to look at Hoseok as he came.
It hurt enough feeling the man release inside of him.
He doesn't need to see Hoseok as he—
"Look at me."
Yoongi faltered.
"Why won't you look at me?"
Yoongi gulped, and opened his eyes, tearing up. "Because if I do I'll keep falling deeper in love."
And they both came, tears streaming down Yoongi's face as he did.
He fell apart, his head falling to rest on Hoseok's chest as he sobbed his heart out.
Hoseok sighed.

Yoongi fell asleep beside Hoseok, crying himself to sleep.