Benefits

EIGHT

Yoongi watched the others talk happily.
He wasn't able to eat right now.
If he did, he would end up puking.
Sighing, Yoongi looked down at his thighs, grunting in displeasure as Hoseok's hand was resting there.
He fought the urge to slap Hoseok's hand off. 
It's been a month since Hoseok got a girlfriend and he still insisted on fucking Yoongi.
Yoongi doesn't even want to anymore.
He used to hope that something would come out of it and now he knew it all meant nothing.
Yoongi kept thining back to the times when they were younger, always seeming to have a part in each others day even if it was just a quick 'hello'.
The day Yoongi found out about Hoseok's girlfriend; he had intentions.
He was gonna tell Hoseok how he felt and, if it went well, they'd have sex.
Only he could never tell Hoseok that now.
"Hoseok, hands where I can see them."Seokjin noticed Yoongi's uncomfortable expression.
Hoseok rolled his eyes but did as told, moving his hands onto the table.
Yoongi rest his head on his hand, shutting his eyes.
"Tired?"Jeongguk smiled at his hyung, nowing Yoongi wouldn't actually see the smile.
"Mhm."
Yoongi had been up all night...with Hoseok.
He was exhausted and used.
It really wasn't like he had a choice.
It was either fuck Hoseok or loose him.
He'd rather make himself feel awful than loose Hoseok.
He wants more but he's never getting more.
Yoongi wishes he was in a fairytale.
One where Hoseok returned Yoongi's feelings.
One where they lived happily ever after.
Together.
Of course, he knows these thoughts are stupid.

Who could love a man who doesn't even love himself?