Will I Ever Be Okay Again?
Chapter 13
Mark's POV
It's already been a couple hours since Meredith came to my room and told me about Lexie. I honestly can't believe she tried to kill herself. I mean I knew that she anorexic, but apparently she self harms too. It breaks my heart. I love Lexie with all my heart and she knows that she can talk to me about anything, yet she hid these secrets from me. To be honest, it's making question how much Lexie loves me. I mean I know she loves me, but not as much as I thought she did. As soon I'm allowed to see her, I'm going to have a gentle talk with her about all of this.
I need to get my mind off of everything for a little while. I lie down and place my face in my pillow. I close my eyes and so soon as I do, my eyes start to water. Before I know it, I'm sobbing into my pillow. I try to keep them quiet, but the only grow louder and louder. Each one resembling more and more sorrow. Everything is falling apart and I don't know if I can glue it back together. I wipe my tears away. I hear footsteps in my room. I freeze up. "Mark, I'm sorry I haven't by to see you, but I heard your sobbing down the hallway and I want to know if you're okay." I know that voice, it belongs to Derek. I sit up in bed and continue to wipe any stray tears.
"Derek I'm sorry for being loud. I promise I'll keep it down." He places a hand on my shoulder. "Mark you don't need to apologize for crying. We're all human and we all cry here and there. Anyways, talk to me. I can tell that you're not okay." I finally make eye contact with him. "You're right, I'm not okay. The truth is I might never be okay." He looks at me confused. "What do you mean you might never be okay?" I sigh. "Derek, Lexie was admitted into the hospital earlier today. She's really sick both physically and mentally. She was found in our house lying in a pool of her own vomit and blood. Meredith told that Lexie admitted that she starved herself on purpose and that she self harmed. She's anorexic and suicidal." I glance at Derek to see his reaction, he is completely shell shocked.
"Little Grey tried to kill herself? Why would she do that?" I run my hands through my hair. "Derek don't you think I would tell you if I know. I don't why she tried to kill herself. As soon as I'm allowed to see her, I'm going to ask her myself. I'm going to be gentle with her because she's in a very fragile state right now and I don't want to break her." An expression of sadness washes over Derek's face. "Mark, I think Lexie is already broken, so make sure you be careful with your choice of words to her when you see her. I don't want my sister in law to be on her death bed again." I nod. "I love Lexie more then life itself. There is no way that I would even think of doing that." Derek nods. "Good. I have to go check on some post OP patients, but I'll come by again as soon as I can." Derek turns to leave and has one hand on the door, but he turns back to face me. "Mark, I know we've had our rough patchs over the years, but you're my best friend and I love you. Never forget that." I smile a weak smile at him. "I love you too Derek, I love you too."
Hope that you guys liked this chapter. :) -Mary
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