Cielois One-Shots Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji AU

His eyes...

 I held his hand when the ambulance was running like a wild animal in the streets to save him.

I'm sitting on this uncomfortable chair, in the hospital, because i was so ignorant. I wish I could turn back time, and at least listen to him. Hear his whisper-no...his scream for help. I'm his best friend, and I didn't know anything about what was going on. I loved him....no...I love him. And I couldn't help the one I love...

It's sad you know? Because, the pang of guilt is making me want to throw up. He wasn't okay. He was in danger almost everyday, and I didn't even know a thing about it. I know now, I'm here, waiting impatiently for the doctors to come out to tell me that he-....he's dead...

I lost all hope, when I was holding his hands, and he didn't squeezed back. He...he looked lifeless....

He looked dead. My best friend- No...my love was...was dying slowly and I didn't even notice. I was too caught up in my selfishness and how I'd look, that I didn't notice him getting hurt. I didn't notice him staying behind all this time. I wish I could see him now..Right now, and alive. I want to know if he's okay or not...

I felt the tears make my eyes sting, and I rubbed them furiously.

He is strong...he can do this!! He can fight for life...he is a fighter, he won't give up!! I know he can do it...

I know you can do it, Alois. I know you can overcome this, and I'll help you by staying by your side, no matter what. There is nothing I can do right now, except believe in you...Believe that you'll make it...

"Alois..." I whispered, looking at the door where they took him...Is he alright? Is he even alive? Or...did he die long before we reach the hospital, without the paramedics knowing it? But- that wouldn't be possible, would it? A-And then...then how no one has come out yet?? I called the police letting them know that he is at the mall, so I don't know what happened to him, yet.. I gritted my teeth at the memory of him. Claude Faustus. He's the one who abused my Alois!! He is- or was- Alois' guardian. But now I know that, he was abusing Alois, all this time, and I didn't even know it..

He makes me sick!! 

But...the thing is, that I never was beside Alois...all these times he asked me to go out, for a sleepover and I turned him down because I was busy playing video games, or be with my other friends...

No one really accepted Alois, because he failed the class and was with us, in the same class. He's a year older, but most of the kids in our class call him "stupid" because he failed the class, and "whore" and "queer" because he wears somehow girly clothes. I was the only one who accepted him, not listening to the others. He was clingy most of the time and it annoyed me most of the time, so I started avoiding him. 

I remember now why I feel so guilty...today I-...I betrayed him...

Tch. I'm just a coward, who wouldn't even stand up for his best friend, in front of the others...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Hey look!! It's that loser, Trancy!!" said Lizzie and giggled pointing at Alois, who was with Claude. I gulped and put my head down. I remember telling him that I was feeling sick, so we couldn't go out...I thought he'd go with someone else, at the cinema. He mentioned the "Star" cinema, which is in the other side of town. Why is he here??

"Do you want to go tease him a bit??" Agni said, smirking a bit. I felt my heart ache...No..I didn't want to do that..I was about to say, that I was hungry and wanted to go eat something, but Lizzie and Soma nodded so they all started walking towards Alois...