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十七

pov felix

"oh wait a second, changbin is calling me. i'm right back!", felix said to his girlfriend and paused the movie. he went in the kitchen, and texted him.

binnie💓

sry can't call you.

i'm at my girlfriends house.

:(

oh okai.

wanna meet today?

yeah sure.

5pm?

yup.

at my house?

yup.

uhh i'm excited :)

same uwu

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"hey lixie, what are you doing here?", my girlfriend asked me. just texting my best boy, whom i like much more than you but i'm still in a relationship with you, because my parents are homophobic, i actually hate you and just want to be in a happy relationship with changbin, but i can't. "just wanted to drink some water", i answered innocently. "hm ok... lixie you look so sad these days... are you okay?" "oh what... me? sad? i'm always happy. i don't know know where you got that from. i'm so happy, you see", i said with a fake smile. it sounded really sarcastic... even tho it was unintentional. "hm okay", she mumbled. "i swear to god can you please stop saying 'hm okay' all the time? i can't stand it. it's always the same. why can't you just shut the fuck up?", i yelled. oh shit-

"get out! get out of my god damn house! and never come back!", she screamed. she's really emotional, but holy shit... my words were not that evil... i guess..

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"uhh i thought were meeting at your house... and it's 4pm...isn't it a little too early?", changbin questioned, but i just went inside his house without answering. i didn't know why but i tried so hard not to cry. i don't love her. i love changbin. maybe because of my parents. maybe i'm just scared of their reaction. what am i even going to say? something like 'hey i just broke up with my girlfriend, i know you loved her so so so much, but now i'm gay, and i'm dating my best friend, and he was my affair, and i never loved my ex'?
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"noo oh my god- why are you crying?", he asked me and took my face in his hands. "i don't know how to come out to my parents. they love my 'girlfriend' more then i do. and my girlfriend is probably really cute and all that stuff, but i'm just not interested in girls..."

"i l-love you, changbin... y-you know i do."

"i love you too felix."